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• been a long time

  it's been a long time since i'd blogged. so many things have happened, especially between me and charles. probably all these things are good in its way. durian and all! hmm shall talk a little about it.
  
  second meeting we went to swissotel's equinox for scenery gazing. third he walked me home all the way from jp! twas such a long way, but we had lots of fun. met up with jun yao, then he sent me home. probably that's the first time he sent me to my doorstep, at least that's the first i could remember. it was a long long tour around jurong! hehe. lots of chinese and stuff we talked about. realised he's not the verbal people. he'd rather "for me to know, for you to find out". hehe. quite strange. perhaps he doesn't know that people needs affirmation. anyway, i'm glad he's not saying anything. i'll melt if he does. we went to play swing before we left. erm. i think one bad thing about me is that i make his moves very motive-driven. everything that he does, i'll tag a purpose for it, which makes him feel so.. uh... not that good. say he wants to spend more time with me and therefore send me home, i'll explicitly say it till he understands. wooh... that's not something really nice about me.
  
  recently he invited me to his camp's dinner and dance. bring a female partner, and he invited me. by default i wonder how many has he invited, by trust i know i'm the one and only. that makes the entire thing very... uh... privileged. haha. forget it, it's $150 for two.
  
  fourth we went NDP preview together. hmm... that's really nice i must add. he's beena gor gor throughout the entire event, till after the parade, where he had quirky ideas to WALK TO ORCHARD from marina. lol. we went to exactly the same place where we had been to the previous time. marina square. went marketplace and he got me an old jamaica. haha. before that we went godiva to look at chocolates. was exorbitantly expensive! anyway. we shared the chocolate at St Andrew's Cathedral. he ate some bread there too, under the stars, the gaze of the equinox tower and beside the koi pond. haha... it was rather cool. save it in your memory.
  
  loves. that sort of feeling. but but but... i can't go into relationship and be dependent. if he decides to withdraw from the contract, i'll still be fine, that's my erm... only consolation?
  
  i just woke up.its early morning. and i dreamt we kissed. aww man... i remember kissing him, then him kissing me, in some beautiful secluded areas. erm.. can't recall though.
  
  he *uh hmm* me on the lips. couldn't resist it. woah. this shows lots. probably i'm waiting. probably when the time comes again i'll not be able to resist it.
  
  BUT I WILL STILL RESIST IT. physical intimacy = bgr = not for me.

  • 18 July 2008
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