Nicola O'connell's blog

thank god i left him and moved on

poisonopalflower — Thu, 30 Jul 2009 13:11:28 UT

i was in a relationship with a guy for just over a year but he turned sour and violent so i left at 28 weeks pregnant and had my beautiful lil girl. soon enought ill get my own place with my daughter and make it my own so i cant wait. i keep looking at katelyn and i see the changes that happen everyday, shes smileing now and makeing new noises, lol shes definately found her voice thats for sure, she can even bring her fist to her mouth now when she wants to suck on it for comfort, shes just so laid back and absolutely loves having a bath, i gave her a bath yeaturday and she was all smiles, kicking around in the water and gurgleing away and i couldnt help but laugh and give her kisses. when shes had all her injections im gonna take her swimming in the swimming baths for the first time so looking forward to that. i love being a mum its the best thing in the world. cant wait till her first birthday coz im gonna throw her a party and get her a birthday cake. ive got absoluetly loads of photos of her already and more to be printed out at the photoshop, all these memorys captured in time as a picture, thank god for cameras eh.

questions that need answers

poisonopalflower — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 02:16:44 UT

Would you makeout with me?
[] Hell Yea [] Yes [] No [] Maybe

Would you sleep with me?
[] In an instant! [] Yes [] No [] Maybe

Am I attractive?
[] Heck no [] hot as Hell [] Fine [] Cute [] Okay [] Ugly!

Do you think I'm a virgin?
[] Yes [] No [] Don't know

Name one thing you would like to do to me... [] _____________

I look like..
[] A player
[] One time thing
[] Next bf/gf
[] A friend
[] A friend with benefits
[] A possibility
[] A loser

If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me?
[] Yes [] No [] maybe

Would you rather..
[] Hook up with me
[] Cuddle with me
[] Date me
[] Friends
[] Friends with benefits

On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate me..
[] 1 [] 2 [] 3 [] 4 [] 5 [] 6 [] 7 [] 8 [] 9 [] 10

What would you want me to be to you?
[] Friend
[] Girlfriend/Boyfriend
[] Friend with benefits
[] Husband/Wife

Would u give me your number if so let me get it? _______________________

Are you going to repost this so i can answer for you?
[] Yes [] No

what i look for and want in a man

poisonopalflower — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 01:08:35 UT

id love for someone to make me smile when i wake up each day, to make me feel special by giving hugs and making me feel happy about myself. to share private in jokes. to collect photographs together to remember times. to trust me. and to love me for who i am. im not into the material, the money, the best looking guy in the world. all i want is for someone to love me back. thats the truth.

fill this in if you want

poisonopalflower — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 19:08:48 UT

1.)Q. Can you cook?
A.

2.)Q. What was your dream growing up?
A.

3.)Q. What talent do you wish you had?
A.

4.)Q. If I bought you a drink what would it be?
A.

5.)Q. Favorite vegetable?
A.

6.)Q. What was the last book you read?
A.

7.)Q. What zodiac sign are you ?
A.

8.)Q. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
A.

9.)Q. Worst Habit?
A.

10.)Q. If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
A.

11.)Q. What is your favorite sport?
A.

12.)Q. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
A.

13. )Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
A.

14.)Q. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
A.

15.)Q. Tell me one weird fact about you:
A.

16.)Q. Do you have any pets?
A.

17.)Q. What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
A.

18.)Q. What was your first impression of me?
A.

19.)Q. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
A.

20.)Q. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be???
A.

21.)Q. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
A.

22.)Q. What color eyes do you have?
A.

23.)Q. Ever been arrested?
A.

24.)Q. What would/did you name your first child?
A.

25.)Q. If you won £10,000 today, what would you do with it?
A.

26.)Q. Would you date me?
A.

27.)Q. What 's your favorite place to hang at?
A.

28.)Q. Do you believe in ghosts?
A.

29.)Q. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
A.

30.)Q. Do you swear a lot?
A.

31.)Q. Biggest pet peeve?
A.

32.)Q. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
A.

33.)Q. Do you believe/appreciate romance?
A.

34.)Q. If you could spend 12 hours with me and ask/do anything you like, what would it be?
A.

35)Q. Do you believe in God?
A.

36.) Q. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and answer it for you?
A.

my first scan for my baby at 12 weeks and 3 days old

poisonopalflower — Wed, 26 Nov 2008 19:25:09 UT

today i had my first scan and saw my baby move and wave, he/she has all her fingers and toes and is growing really well. i got all teary and had to stop myself from crying so i could see the scan picture which is as clear as day. my baby is just beautiful and perfect

being pregnant

poisonopalflower — Sun, 23 Nov 2008 14:09:01 UT

around six weeks ago I found out that I was pregnant with my first child the only thing is it was to the worst possible person to have a child with and his name is Gavin Pollen, left him once not knowing I was pregnant and made the mistake of going bk to him and then 3 days later did a test and it was positive I was pregnant and over the moon, I couldn't wipe the smile off my face and was shaking like a leaf. it was 3 days after finding out that I was pregnant that he trye'd to kill his self and I stopped him (stupid me) and he lay there in a mess on the floor and told me that he had cheated on my with and ex of his, right then and there I thought what the fuck did I just hear him right and he said it again and my whole world just caved in, I just had to get away from him and ran downstairs in floods of tears which is where at 3 or 4 weeks pregnant I collapsed in a heap and had a panic attack at the bottom of the stairs and just couldn't stand up because my legs wouldn't hold me. he came down stairs and had to pick me up and drag my upstairs and all I could think was how could you do this to me. I just wanted to get away from him and at the same time beat him to a pulp. I eventually got upstairs and calmed down just enough to talk to him and he told me everything, who where when the lot and kept saying he was sorry and it meant nothing to him and that it was just sex and started to cry and try 'd to cuddle me but I pushed him away. all i could think of then was my baby and how I had to calm down and what he had done was going change this baby's life forever because I couldn't be with him any more, we sat and talked some more and decided to give it a try and see how things would go and if me and him could work but everyday i thought about what he had done and just ended up hating him and came to a point where everything that came out of his mouth was a lie like him saying "I love you " or "I want to spend the rest of my life with you and if i could id marry you tomorrow". so around six or so weeks later I decided that I just couldn't take any more of his crap and him hitting me so on the 4th November 2008 I told him through text that I'd just had enough and that I wasn't working, he text me bk saying I'm coming bk home now because he was out at a friends and had been all day so I told him don't bother because I'm not going be here I'm going for a walk and to stay where he was at but he wouldn't take no for an answer, I got my coat and walked down to the beach for some alone time where he rang me and came to see me and i told him to just go and leave me alone but he wouldn't take no for an answer and got angry and violent towards me trying to push and pull me into the car he had drove down to the sea front where we lived at the time in Blackpool. I stood up to walk away from him and he grabbed me when I pulled away and got him off me and just kept walking he managed to run and catch me up after a short while and stood with his hands either side of me against the sea front wall so I couldn't move and said to just come somewhere with him to a mate of his or something but just not here and I refused to get in the car with him to go anywhere and so he trye'd to grab me and get e in the car but I was having non of it and managed to get away from him once more so he went off in a huff and got in the car and drove like he was going leave so I went to go elsewhere when he circled around me in the car and said get in and I refused saying no and got my bag off the front seat that he had got from the flat. he drove off in a rage and I crossed the road and walked down a side street and he managed to find me in the car and trye'd again and again to get me in the car where each time I refused, he finally managed to corner me and said that he loved me and that I was his world his everything and that he was scared but I refused to get in the car when he went into a rage and said "I got problems so ill sort em out right now" pointing to his head and stared headbuting the wall of a building so I took no notice and trye'd to walk away but he trye'd to stop me but didn't succeed. he got in his car again and drove off and I walked the opposite way and hid near a chippy and rang my mum telling her everything shakeing like a leaf because of him shouting, pulling and pushing me and asked my mum if she could come get me there and then but she couldn't because she had some wine and was unable to drive to come get me. I hid from him because I saw him on foot looking for me and I was scared, I found out later that he got bk in his car and started to look for me but id already gone bk to the flat and a while after he rang me asking me to let him in so I said that on the condition he didn't shout and scream at me and didn't hit me so I went and opened the front door an let him in. after a while I made me and Gavin tea because we hadn't eaten anything and watched TV in silence. I didn't sleep much that night with him lay next to me in the same bed that I had bought and allowed him to put his hand on my tummy to feel close to the baby, I woke up around 3 am and told him I couldn't sleep he pushed his self onto me and that night we had sex, I don't even know why because I really didn't want him touching me but he was very pushy and I just gave in knowing it would be the last time he ever had to touch me, it wasn't the first time he had forced his way onto to me and made me have sex with him but somehow that night felt different because I knew it was the last time it was ever going happen and that I wouldn't miss it because he wasn't that good in bed anyway. after the sex i just wanted him away from me but he managed to cuddle up to me so I let him but felt very uncomfortable with him doing so but felt like I didn't have a choice. I got out of bed and went and made a brew and prayed that the morning would come fast so that I didn't have to spend a second longer with him than I had to. Now I'm just going to consentrate on my unborn child and stay well away from my now ex thank god

fill this out for a laugh lol

poisonopalflower — Sat, 22 Nov 2008 22:36:52 UT

Your Name:

2. Age:

3. Fave Color:

4. Are you a virgin?

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Are we friends?

2. Do you have a crush on me?

3. Would you kiss me?

4. ...with tongue?

5. Would you enjoy it?

6. Would you ever ask me out?

7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?

9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?

10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?

11.Would you walk on the beach with me?

12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?

13. Do you/have you talk shit about me?

14. Do you think I'm a good person?

15. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)?

17.Do you think I'm hot?

18. If you could change anything about me -would you?

19.Would you have sex with me?

20.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

21. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

22. what do you rate me outta 1-10?

fill this in, just for a laugh

poisonopalflower — Fri, 19 Sep 2008 10:36:37 UT

1. wat ur first impressions of me?
2. Age:

3. Favorite position (s) ?

4. Do you think i'm hot?

5. Would you have sex with me?

6. lights on or off?

7. Would you have to be drunk?

8. Would you take a shower with me?

9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me?

10. Would you leave after or stay the night?

11. Do you like cuddling afterwards?

12. Do you give Oral pleasures?

13. Do you like to recieve Oral Pleasures?

14. Have sex on the first date?

15. Would you kiss me during sex?

16. Do you think I would be good in bed?

17. Three-some?

18. How many times would you like to cum?

19. Would you use me as a booty call?

20. Do you like fore play?

21. What is fore play to you?

22. Can we take pictures of the act?

23. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you??

look re-homeing reptiles

poisonopalflower — Tue, 17 Jun 2008 14:57:50 UT

please visit this site if you can give a home to a unwanted pet www.reptilerescueden.co.uk

fill this in

poisonopalflower — Fri, 07 Mar 2008 16:08:24 UT

smile - written by i woman i know

poisonopalflower — Mon, 18 Feb 2008 23:22:56 UT

Smile
She smiles sweetly
to hide her fear
to hide the pain
that is always near

Her stomach aches
from being sad
She wants to stop
feeling so bad

She wishes the world
were a happier place
that way she could put
a smile on her face

Will no one notice
the pain that's inside
Can no one see
how much she's cried

wanting to feel free
wanting to be happy
tired of pretending
there is no misery

What will it take
for people to know
that the smile she shows
is actually fake?

She has the world fooled
thinking she's pleased
with how her life's going
Can they be so naive

But someday soon
someone will see
and notice that there
is no bright moon

to light up her misery
to fade away pain
and make her really smile
once again.

just watched resident evil exctinction

poisonopalflower — Mon, 18 Feb 2008 21:14:17 UT

its gory, bloody, scary and has a great story and its not over yet, im sure there gonna make another film becase at the ending of this one its like it has to be continued.its a must wach film thats for sure but its not for the scwemish and i really like it

written by a guy

poisonopalflower — Thu, 10 Jan 2008 05:20:39 UT

we don't care if you talk to other guys.

We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls >OR TEXTS< you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait
till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/
cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.

We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood im in.

let us pay for you!

dont "feel bad"

We enjoy doing it.

It's expected.

Smile and

say "thank you."

Kiss us when no

one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to
wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you are.

honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up

Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.

It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word "handsome"/"beautiful"

I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.

on the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether ; )

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change. ditch his sorry, disgrace to the male population ass and find someone who will treat you with utter respect

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your
lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say "i love you" ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance

Guys repost this if you agree

Girls repost this if you think it's cute

Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this

*Holdin Hands
Girls :If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of
times.
Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.

*Cuddling
Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold
Guys : Automatically move closer to her.

*Movies
Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

*Loving each other
Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her
too... And mean it.

*Laying below the stars
Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

By 12 am tonight your one true love will realize how much they want you.

Girls repost as written by a guy
Guys post as This is so True
or we do care

what boyfriends should do for every woman they love

poisonopalflower — Tue, 18 Dec 2007 07:34:30 UT

What a boyfriend should do....

• Grab her neck when you kiss her, it's a real turn on. Not her butt/boobs.

• Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.

• When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go then kiss her

• When she says she's ok dont believe it talk with her

• Never cheat on her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

• Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

• Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

• Treat her like a person and not something to show off for

• Tease her and let her tease you back.

• Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

• Watch her favorite movie with her.

• TRUST HER WITH HER GUY FRIENDS

• Let her wear your clothes.

• When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

• Let her know she's important.

• Kiss her in the pouring rain.

• When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking babe?"

love ,friendship,honesty

poisonopalflower — Tue, 11 Dec 2007 02:48:56 UT

LOVE starts with a SMILE , grows with a KISS , and ends with a TEAR. DON'T cry over anyone who won't cry over you. Good FRIENDS are hard to find, and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push. ACTIONS speak louder than words....... The HARDEST thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. DON'T let the past hold you back, you're missing the good things. LIFE'S SHORT. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it. A BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover, HARD TO FIND and LUCKY TO HAVE! .... Some people make the world SPECIAL just by being in it. BEST FRIENDS are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it HURTS to look back, and you're SCARED to look ahead, you can look beside you and your BEST FRIEND will be there. TRUE FRIENDSHIP "NEVER" ENDS. Friends are FOREVER. Good friends are like STARS You don't always see them, but you know they are ALWAYS THERE. DON'T frown. You never know who is falling in love with your smile. What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end. Most people walk in and out of your life, but only FRIENDS leave footprints in your heart. no1 is worth you're tears and the one that is wouldnt make you cry!

dick song rofl

poisonopalflower — Sat, 17 Nov 2007 02:13:04 UT

At first i was afraid
i was petrified.When
u sed u ad 10
inches, lord i almost
died! But id spent so
many yrs just
waiting 4 a man
that long, that i
grew strong, and i
knew that i cud take
u on....But there u r,
another lie, i woz
ready 4 a big mac
an u bought me a
french fry! I shud
hav known that it
woz bullshit, just a
sad pathetic dream
should hav known
there was no
anaconda lurking in
those jeans! Go on
now- go, walk out
the door, dnt u
promise me 10
inches then turn up
with only 4! Wernt
u a brat 2 think i
wudnt find out?
Dnt u know were
only joking wen we
say size dnt count? I
wil survive! I will
survive! Cuz as long
as i hav batteries,
my sex lifes gona
thrive! I will always
hav gud sex, with a
handful of latex! I
wil survive

random quiz

poisonopalflower — Mon, 08 Oct 2007 16:13:37 UT

1. Whats your Name?
2. Are we close?
3. What do you think of me?
4. Do you hav a crush on me?
5. Would u kiss me?
6. would u fuk me?
7. Describe me in 3 words?
8. If u Had Me for 30 Mins wat would you do?
9. What was ur first impression of me?
10. Do u still think the same?
11. What reminds u of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do u know me?
14. What do u like best about me?
15. Ever wanted 2 tell me something u couldn't?
16. Could you ever love me?
17. Give me a nickname and explain why?
18.R u gona put this on ur blog and c wat i say bout u?
19. Anything 2 say b4 u go?

more jokes

poisonopalflower — Sun, 03 Jun 2007 21:40:46 UT

The kindergarten class had a homework assignment to find out about something exciting and relate it to the class the next day. When the time came for the little kids to give their reports, the teacher was calling on them one at a time. She was reluctant to call upon little Johnnie, knowing that he sometimes could be a bit crude. But eventually his turn came.

Little Johnnie walked up to the front of the class, and with a piece of chalk, made a small white dot on the blackboard, then sat back down. Well the teacher couldn't figure out what Johnnie had in mind for his report on something exciting, so she asked him just what that was.

"It's a period" reported Johnnie.
"Well I can see that" she said. "but what is so exciting about a period."

"Buggered if I know" said Johnnie, "but this morning my sister said she missed one. Then Daddy had a heart attack, Mummy fainted and the man next door shit himself."

jokes

poisonopalflower — Sun, 03 Jun 2007 21:37:36 UT

Q: Which sexual position produces the ugliest children?
A: Ask your mom.

Q: What is the quickest way to clear out a men's restroom?
A: Say, "Nice dick."

Q: How do you know you're leading a sad life?
A: When a nymphomaniac tells you, "Let's just be friends."

Q: Are birth control pills deductible?
A: Only if they don't work

Q: What did one saggy boob say to the other saggy boob?
A: If we don't get some support soon, people are going to think we're nuts.

Q: Why don't bunnies make noise when they make love?
A: Because they have cotton balls.

Q: What do you get when you cross an Owl and a Rooster?
A: A cock that stays up all night.

Q: Mom's have Mother's Day, Father's have Father's Day. What do single guys have?
A: Palm Sunday

Q: Why is being in the military like a blowjob?
A: The closer you get to discharge, the better you feel.

Q: What do you call a ninety year old man who can still masturbate?
A: Miracle Whip.

Q: Why did they kick the midget out of the nudist colony?
A: He was getting into everybody's hair.

joke

poisonopalflower — Mon, 14 May 2007 20:59:31 UT

A wife answers the door bell and a man asks her, "Lady, do you have a vagina?" and she slams the door shut. The next day the wife answers the door bell and its the same guy and he asks her, "Lady, do you have a vagina?" and she slams the door shut.

The woman tells her husband about the guy and he says he will stay home from work the next day and this time she should tell the man she has a vagina and see what happens. The door bell rings, the woman answers the door, the man asks, "Lady do you have a vagina?" to which she says, "Yes, I do."
The man then tells her, "Well then tell your husband to make use of it and stay away from my wife."

new rockin clan

poisonopalflower — Fri, 24 Nov 2006 13:02:47 UT

ive created a new clan called metal madness chic for bi gay and streight girls who are into rock music mad and who like to have a laugh and get down and gritty. come on girls! join me!