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Blog / Me space...me time

Tuesday, 23 June 2009 at 17:58

I'm building another layer of solid concrete wall around me, and put a sign that says, " Stay away".

I'm currently in my " me" mode now. Me mode means, everything have to be about me, infact, if i could i would make the universe revolves around me. But luckily that would be impossible, or else, i would be extremely sure that the universe will vanished in just fraction of second, coz being me, i knew i have the worst ability of maintaining things in the right order, thus i knew for sure, everything in the universe, would be in the collision course with each other.

I've just move into this new apartment, renting of course. But the best part, i rent it all by my self. I'm always the type of person who appreciate my "me time & me space" more than anything. Its not that i'm an anti-social freak, it just that i hate crowd, and love silence more. But that does not make me a quiet person either. I came from a very loud family, and i'm loud too, especially with close frenz and with those who are close to me. But in general, i think we Malaysian, socialised too much, and most of the time we are bad at it.

Example: ever found yourself stuck in one of those gathering where lots of your relatives gather for makan-makan plus tanya khabar ( in other words means mengumpat and boasting around), yea..that one, that family gathering. And worst during those moment you always found yourself being ask a dozen of ridiculous question from this nosey relative, that u swear, if killing is acceptable, than you are actually had developed an amazing skill at it. Socializing the “Malaysian style” we tend to over look the aspect of privacy in our conversation. Seriously, i don’t know about u guys, but i cant help to feel a bit offended when people either ask or make sarcastic assumption bout my honest earning, my still -bachelor-and-happily –ambitious-dont-- have -plan- to -settle –down attitude, and find the idea of “ u have to love rendang just because u are a malay” a bit irritating, I HATE RENDANG.......I HATE RENDANG. Need me to elaborate more?, i guess everyone got the idea.

Look, i’m not a very bad person, it just that i like to keep my distance with strangers, and when i mean strangers, it means that those are the people that i did not have my trust into. Doesn’t matter if u are my cousin, but if i fail to feel the connection and the emotional safety in her/him, with all due respect, i’m sorry but u are still a stranger to me. I don’t however build my trust based on the time that i have known someone. But based on how i feel when i’m with that someone. Its difficult to explain, its something got to do with the instinct and the feel factor. Well, i guess the hearts know what the mind didn’t.

And when i’ve become so close to someone, so close to the point where u can even sip my latte from the same straw that i’m using, trust me, u can talk about anything even as ridiculous as planning my wedding reception with Optimus Prime. Yeah, u read it right, it’s Optimus prime, from the Transformers. I suddenly found my self falling in love with that hot truck. He’s so charismatic ! OMG...I’m getting worst, i fall in love with virtual alien robot. :)

Why did i write this?...nothing, just lately, peopel been questioning bout my individualistic attitude more often then before, and yes, thanks to this things that we all called "STRESS" i choose to withdrawn from people in order to avoid my sarcastism to hurt other.And l can't beleive that last monday and tuesday, my boss make me attend the "CRUCIAL CONVERSATION" course. WHAT???????

P/s: Speaking of transformers, i’ve watch the sequel- just got to say, that i’m a bit disappointed. Don’t feel like elaborating.
:)

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  • http://netlog.com/fadly_rahimFadly RahimRahimFadlyfadly_rahimhttp://en.netlogstatic.com/p/tt/020/175/20175362.jpgMalaysiaSelangor fadly_rahim 28

    Fadly Rahim (Thursday, 25 June 2009 at 21:44)

    geram...
    tu jek
    :):):):)

  • http://netlog.com/itahattaita HattaHattaitaitahattahttp://en.netlogstatic.com/p/tt/020/840/20840902.jpgMalaysiaWilayah Persekutuan itahatta 28

    ita Hatta (Thursday, 25 June 2009 at 21:42)

    - fadly_rahim:
    - itahatta:
    - fadly_rahim:
    - itahatta:
    [quote=dawlindinizah]soalan org x kan berenti.. klu kite blm kawin, org tanya, "bila nak kawin"
    bila dh kawin, org tanya, "bila nak dpt anak"
    bila dh dpt anak sorg, org tanya, "bila nak dpt sorg lg anak"
    bila anak dah masuk skolah, blajo, org sebuk dok tanya result exam
    bila anak dah abeh blajo, org tanya, "bila anak ko nak keja"
    bila anak dah keja, org tanya, "bila nak terima menantu"
    bila anak dah kawin, org tanya, "bila nak dpt cucu"

    tolonglah.................. sy penat dgn soklan org yg xde titik noktahnya............. :)[/quote]

    :) :) :)..adoi, gelak golek2 aku

    nowadays, those nosey relatives not just attacking the single lady...
    even guys cant hide from those question..
    doesnt guys of my age is gay, or playboy, or not capable financially..
    just happen dont feel like to settle down yet..wit no apparent reason.. why just cant they leave us alone..
    hohohohoh!!!

    Stuju........society mcm lebih rela kita settle down with the wrong partner, than having us taking our own sweet time, to look for the right person at the right time and being together for the right reason.........tensen...tensen....tensen..

    I think the next time people ask me biler nak settle down...buta buat muka selamba and say ..' Owh...i'm lesbian"...see how they like that question...hehehehhehehe :)

    tol2..
    klu ckp lom sampai jodoh, mula la ckp, "tak cari ke?", "memilih sangat ke?" " napa takde gf plak?" "ko kan laki, takkan takde yg berkenan"

    pepet tol..hahahah!!

    eeeerrrrr...ayat terakhir tu sensitive and sensor...hahahahhahah :)

  • http://netlog.com/fadly_rahimFadly RahimRahimFadlyfadly_rahimhttp://en.netlogstatic.com/p/tt/020/175/20175362.jpgMalaysiaSelangor fadly_rahim 28

    Fadly Rahim (Thursday, 25 June 2009 at 18:12)

    - itahatta:
    - fadly_rahim:
    - itahatta:
    - dawlindinizah:
    soalan org x kan berenti.. klu kite blm kawin, org tanya, "bila nak kawin"
    bila dh kawin, org tanya, "bila nak dpt anak"
    bila dh dpt anak sorg, org tanya, "bila nak dpt sorg lg anak"
    bila anak dah masuk skolah, blajo, org sebuk dok tanya result exam
    bila anak dah abeh blajo, org tanya, "bila anak ko nak keja"
    bila anak dah keja, org tanya, "bila nak terima menantu"
    bila anak dah kawin, org tanya, "bila nak dpt cucu"

    tolonglah.................. sy penat dgn soklan org yg xde titik noktahnya............. :)

    :) :) :)..adoi, gelak golek2 aku

    nowadays, those nosey relatives not just attacking the single lady...
    even guys cant hide from those question..
    doesnt guys of my age is gay, or playboy, or not capable financially..
    just happen dont feel like to settle down yet..wit no apparent reason.. why just cant they leave us alone..
    hohohohoh!!!

    Stuju........society mcm lebih rela kita settle down with the wrong partner, than having us taking our own sweet time, to look for the right person at the right time and being together for the right reason.........tensen...tensen....tensen..

    I think the next time people ask me biler nak settle down...buta buat muka selamba and say ..' Owh...i'm lesbian"...see how they like that question...hehehehhehehe :)

    tol2..
    klu ckp lom sampai jodoh, mula la ckp, "tak cari ke?", "memilih sangat ke?" " napa takde gf plak?" "ko kan laki, takkan takde yg berkenan"

    pepet tol..hahahah!!

  • http://netlog.com/itahattaita HattaHattaitaitahattahttp://en.netlogstatic.com/p/tt/020/840/20840902.jpgMalaysiaWilayah Persekutuan itahatta 28

    ita Hatta (Thursday, 25 June 2009 at 17:47)

    - fadly_rahim:
    - itahatta:
    - dawlindinizah:
    soalan org x kan berenti.. klu kite blm kawin, org tanya, "bila nak kawin"
    bila dh kawin, org tanya, "bila nak dpt anak"
    bila dh dpt anak sorg, org tanya, "bila nak dpt sorg lg anak"
    bila anak dah masuk skolah, blajo, org sebuk dok tanya result exam
    bila anak dah abeh blajo, org tanya, "bila anak ko nak keja"
    bila anak dah keja, org tanya, "bila nak terima menantu"
    bila anak dah kawin, org tanya, "bila nak dpt cucu"

    tolonglah.................. sy penat dgn soklan org yg xde titik noktahnya............. :)

    :) :) :)..adoi, gelak golek2 aku

    nowadays, those nosey relatives not just attacking the single lady...
    even guys cant hide from those question..
    doesnt guys of my age is gay, or playboy, or not capable financially..
    just happen dont feel like to settle down yet..wit no apparent reason.. why just cant they leave us alone..
    hohohohoh!!!

    Stuju........society mcm lebih rela kita settle down with the wrong partner, than having us taking our own sweet time, to look for the right person at the right time and being together for the right reason.........tensen...tensen....tensen..

    I think the next time people ask me biler nak settle down...buta buat muka selamba and say ..' Owh...i'm lesbian"...see how they like that question...hehehehhehehe :)

  • http://netlog.com/fadly_rahimFadly RahimRahimFadlyfadly_rahimhttp://en.netlogstatic.com/p/tt/020/175/20175362.jpgMalaysiaSelangor fadly_rahim 28

    Fadly Rahim (Thursday, 25 June 2009 at 17:35)

    - itahatta:
    - dawlindinizah:
    soalan org x kan berenti.. klu kite blm kawin, org tanya, "bila nak kawin"
    bila dh kawin, org tanya, "bila nak dpt anak"
    bila dh dpt anak sorg, org tanya, "bila nak dpt sorg lg anak"
    bila anak dah masuk skolah, blajo, org sebuk dok tanya result exam
    bila anak dah abeh blajo, org tanya, "bila anak ko nak keja"
    bila anak dah keja, org tanya, "bila nak terima menantu"
    bila anak dah kawin, org tanya, "bila nak dpt cucu"

    tolonglah.................. sy penat dgn soklan org yg xde titik noktahnya............. :)

    :) :) :)..adoi, gelak golek2 aku

    nowadays, those nosey relatives not just attacking the single lady...
    even guys cant hide from those question..
    doesnt guys of my age is gay, or playboy, or not capable financially..
    just happen dont feel like to settle down yet..wit no apparent reason.. why just cant they leave us alone..
    hohohohoh!!!

  • http://netlog.com/Mummy_Syahmishe-mashe-maMummy_Syahmihttp://en.netlogstatic.com/p/tt/011/381/11381671.jpgMalaysiaJohor Mummy_Syahmi 36

    she-ma (Wednesday, 24 June 2009 at 15:08)

    - itahatta:
    - Mummy_Syahmi:
    Hehe... I luv the voice.. macho!

    Yup...me too...Optimus reflect all the criteria of what man should really have.....ehhehehehhe :)

    Jum.. :)

  • http://netlog.com/itahattaita HattaHattaitaitahattahttp://en.netlogstatic.com/p/tt/020/840/20840902.jpgMalaysiaWilayah Persekutuan itahatta 28

    ita Hatta (Wednesday, 24 June 2009 at 07:58)

    - dawlindinizah:
    soalan org x kan berenti.. klu kite blm kawin, org tanya, "bila nak kawin"
    bila dh kawin, org tanya, "bila nak dpt anak"
    bila dh dpt anak sorg, org tanya, "bila nak dpt sorg lg anak"
    bila anak dah masuk skolah, blajo, org sebuk dok tanya result exam
    bila anak dah abeh blajo, org tanya, "bila anak ko nak keja"
    bila anak dah keja, org tanya, "bila nak terima menantu"
    bila anak dah kawin, org tanya, "bila nak dpt cucu"

    tolonglah.................. sy penat dgn soklan org yg xde titik noktahnya............. :)

    :) :) :)..adoi, gelak golek2 aku

  • http://netlog.com/dawlindinizahDawlin ZainudinZainudinDawlindawlindinizahhttp://en.netlogstatic.com/p/tt/026/992/26992128.jpgMalaysiaWilayah Persekutuan dawlindinizah 25

    Dawlin Zainudin (Wednesday, 24 June 2009 at 03:57)

    soalan org x kan berenti.. klu kite blm kawin, org tanya, "bila nak kawin"
    bila dh kawin, org tanya, "bila nak dpt anak"
    bila dh dpt anak sorg, org tanya, "bila nak dpt sorg lg anak"
    bila anak dah masuk skolah, blajo, org sebuk dok tanya result exam
    bila anak dah abeh blajo, org tanya, "bila anak ko nak keja"
    bila anak dah keja, org tanya, "bila nak terima menantu"
    bila anak dah kawin, org tanya, "bila nak dpt cucu"

    tolonglah.................. sy penat dgn soklan org yg xde titik noktahnya............. :)

  • http://netlog.com/itahattaita HattaHattaitaitahattahttp://en.netlogstatic.com/p/tt/020/840/20840902.jpgMalaysiaWilayah Persekutuan itahatta 28

    ita Hatta (Tuesday, 23 June 2009 at 21:28)

    - ini_aku_kah:
    - ini_aku_kah:
    alamak..
    aku = decepticom = megatron yang telah terjatuh cinta kat Mr Bumblebee la plak..
    haih..
    op silap..meant to say pengikut megatron..not megatron him self..because that would be weird..thought dunno which are weirder..falling for bumblebee or mistakenly declaring self as male evil robot..but..anyway..er..ok..done..

    hahahahhah..... :) :) :) lawak la ko babe...

  • http://netlog.com/inside_looking_outperempuanperempuaninside_looking_outhttp://en.netlogstatic.com/p/tt/026/600/26600534.jpgMalaysiaKedah inside_looking_out 27

    perempuan (Tuesday, 23 June 2009 at 21:26)

    - ini_aku_kah:
    alamak..
    aku = decepticom = megatron yang telah terjatuh cinta kat Mr Bumblebee la plak..
    haih..
    op silap..meant to say pengikut megatron..not megatron him self..because that would be weird..thought dunno which are weirder..falling for bumblebee or mistakenly declaring self as male evil robot..but..anyway..er..ok..done..

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