hastiX
female - 17 years, urmia, Iran, Islamic Republic of
Blog 2
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addicted
Have I told you how good it feels to be me,
when I'm in you?
I can only stay clean
when you are around.
Don't let me fall.
If I close my eyes forever,
would it ease the pain?
Could I breathe again?
Maybe I'm addicted,
I'm out of control,
but you're the drug
that keeps me from dying.
Maybe I'm a liar,
but all I really know is
you're the only reason I'm trying.
I am wasted away,
I made a million mistakes.
Am I too late?
There is a storm in my head;
it rains on my bed
when you are not here.
I'm not afraid of dying,
but I am afraid of losing you.
Maybe I'm addicted,
I'm out of control,
but you're the drug
that keeps me from dying.
Maybe I'm a liar,
but all I really know is
you're the only reason I'm trying.
When you're lying next to me
love is going through to me.
Oh it's beautiful.
Everything is clear to me
'till I hit reality
and I lose it all...
I lose it all...
I lose it all.
I lose it all...
You're the only reason,
Yeah, you're the only reason I'm trying,
Oh, I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying,
Don't want to lose it all,
Don't want to lose it all,
I'm trying, I'm trying..
I'm trying ...
Yeah, you know I'm addicted,
You know I'm addicted,
Yeah, you know I'm addicted.... -
flushing the past(!)
When I was a little green girl about 8, I got a video game called "Disney painter".
In fact that was not an action game or puzzle that was a paint program which you could paint whatever you wanted plus some Disney's characters (like mickey goofy,...) and scenes and funny fonts through the paint stuffs.
I set and painted and painted for hours,
The most interesting effect in the game was the way of renewing the pages,
You paint an awful picture which you can't gaze on it even for sec!
So you use the renewing tool
a Toilet flush!!!!
That was a bended steel on the top of the screen at the right, Just like the ones we see at the WCs
However my parents banded me to paint we that game because of that flush handle, but that was interesting for me how funny can an act be!
Renewing your work you've done for hours with a Toilet flush!!!
You treat to your works just like a ####
but when I see the life I wonder what if something like the flush handle existed in it?
You can start again without seeing the past without knowing what the hell you have done or what the hell the others have done to you during the years of your life, Be relaxed every moment, Just getting wiser without reminding yourself what had happened , Just gaining with an instant pain,
, A pain you can forget how it feels ,
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