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i love my page...lol

deray_113 — Sat, 08 Dec 2007 12:58:06 UT

i love my page it's so pink...hahahaha!

thanks!

deray_113 — Thu, 15 Nov 2007 04:54:57 UT

so i never really felt like celebrating my bday this year...just not in the mood i guess...so i was surprised to have recieved a lot of gifts this year...that's just not normal..lol

i got a new coffee maker from my siblings
a new really cute bag from my mom and stepdaD
red roses from my mom
cards from my family
a call from my dad
a video greeting from my bestfriends...
call from my aunt and uncle
txt from my friends
cake from my coworker
a cd from my other coworker
emails from my friends
greetings from my net friends and clanmates

hmm...i kinda feel spoiled...and i kinda feel bad for not being in the mood to celebrate it...cause obviously people around feel otherwise...lol

so just want to take this oppurtunity to thank all of you...
God bless...
thanks for making my 22nd birthday special!lol

yey!

deray_113 — Tue, 13 Nov 2007 04:35:10 UT

my mom and siblings got me a new coffee maker for my bday!!!
just what i wanted!!!

me so very happy!!!!

what a day

deray_113 — Mon, 22 Oct 2007 01:09:12 UT

so it was my frst time to ever drive in a freeway..lol
im not a good driver...so it was really something major for me..and to top it all i really wanted to go to the beach and to get there you need to go in a freeway...
the prob is i was too excited that when i parked and payed for my parking space..after taking some pics to prove to my bro that i did get into the freeway and went to beach...
this is so stupid...i left my wallet on my windshield...
and only realized it when i was on my way home...on the freaking freeway..i even saw my wallet flew off my window...and i almost froze and all i could to think of is to get it back...since the three most impt card is in it...my license,credit and debit card...so i decided to stop to get it..and almost started a bad traffic...lol

and so this nice man saw that i had stopped and had turned on my hazzard light.....lol
he was a fireman...his name was TIM...and he told me that he'll help me but i have to get off the freeway cause my car was blocking the way...and an accident might happen...so i did...and he helped me get my wallet back...

the problem was when i got my wallet back i realized that my license holder... the one that i had bought back home was missing...and it has my license and debit card...talk about luck...oh well at least i wont have to buy a new wallet...what a hassle...now i have to close my acct and get a new license...

good thing the beach looked really good today..so i guess its all worth it...hay...

what's dignity?

deray_113 — Mon, 15 Oct 2007 18:25:40 UT

let me quote this from paulo coelho's novel, veronika decides to die...
'What's dignity?
It's a wanting everyone to think you're good,
well behaved,
full of love for your fellow man.
Have some respect to nature,
watch a few films about animals,
and see how they fight for their own space.'

lol..thought it was funny and so true...i simply love this author...

what now?

deray_113 — Fri, 21 Sep 2007 04:16:34 UT

so what should i do now?

*sigh*
*sigh*
*sigh*

im bored....

so what should i do now...just thinking of having too much free time and doing exactly nothing just sucks!!!

im so bored..what should i do now?

*sigh*
*sigh*
*sigh*

lol

deray_113 — Sun, 26 Aug 2007 21:20:18 UT

study hard....party hard....lol!

the way i are

deray_113 — Mon, 06 Aug 2007 06:25:48 UT

finally remembered the song thats been bothering me for almost a week now..lol
been trying to remember what's the title of that song that makes me wanna dance and go party...lol

the way i are
by timbaland
(feat. Keri Hilson, D.O.E.)

[ Verse 1: Timbaland ]
I ain't got no money
I ain't got no car to take you on a date
I can't even buy you flowers
But together we can be the perfect soulmates
Talk to me girl

[ Bridge: Keri Hilson ]
Oh, baby, it's alright now, you
ain't gotta flaunt for me
If we go Dutch, you can still touch my love, it's free
We can work without the perks just you and me
Thug it out 'til we get it right

[ Chorus: Keri Hilson & (Timbaland) ]
Baby if you strip, you can get a tip
'Cause I like you just the way you are
(I'm about to strip and I'm well equiped
Can you handle me the way I'm are
I don't need the cheese or the car keys
Boy I like you just the way you are
Let me see ya strip, you can get a tip
'Cause I like, I like, I like

[ Verse 2: Timbaland ]
I ain't got no Visa
I ain't got no Red American Express
We can't go nowhere exotic
It don't matter 'cause I'm the one that loves you best
Talk to me girl

[ Bridge 2: Keri Hilson ]
Oh, baby, it's alright now, you
[ Lyrics provided by www.mp3lyrics.org ]
ain't gotta flaunt for me
If we go Dutch, you can still touch my love, it's free
We can work without the perks just you and me
Thug it out 'til we get it right

[ Chorus: Keri Hilson & (Timbaland) ]
Baby if you strip, you can get a tip
'Cause I like you just the way you are
(I'm about to strip and I'm well equiped
Can you handle me the way I'm are
I don't need the cheese or the car keys
Boy I like you just the way you are
Let me see ya strip, you can get a tip
'Cause I like you just the way you are

[ Verse 3: D.O.E. ]
Baby girl, I don't got a huge ol'
house I rent a room in a house
Listen baby girl, I ain't got a
motorboat but I can float ya boat
So listen baby girl, once you get a dose of
D.O.E. you gon' want some mo'
So listen baby girl, when I make it I want
you there, want you there, yeah

grrr...

deray_113 — Fri, 03 Aug 2007 04:32:03 UT

so i had a bad day today...hmmm...not only did our computers at work were down since 5pm this afternoon until we left...its probably still down right now...realization had hit me hard...there's been a lot of things going on in my life and ive been trying to avoid it..i dont know why..its just that i dont feel like complaining..like ive exhausted my energy enough...so why even bother right?!!

everything seems like its doing great..well, at least that's what other people think..coz i dont know i'm just not ready to talk about it...
but now im ready to talk..

lets start with my family...so its always been shity...but it could have been worst..so a problem at home is like a daily task i have to deal with..dont get me wrong...I LOVE MY FAMILY!! more than anything and thus my greatest stress comes from them...so now we are facing another dilemma..my parents separation is a long thing in the past...now we are facing my sister's stubborness...i call it 'my sister and her teenage years'...so she's young and in love, therefore she is currently in a stupid state right now...grrrrr...her long distance relationship with her boyfriend..aint gonna work but she is in a fantasy world as most of the teenage girls are when they first fall in love...'he's the one for me..or he is my first and last'...i shall not state an example why i think they should go separate ways..all i can say is that a relationship withou trust or respect is not a relationship at all!!!!!

2nd, and i think the topic i really dont wanna talk about right now..is my bestfriends...grwing apart issues..so im here in the state and they are having their issues...both stubborn ofcourse and both have different views in life..aint it shitty when friendship ends...especially the ones that you think would last forever...anyways, still hoping for the best but i got to tell you it HURTS like shit!!!

3rd, my love life...hmmm..next topic please...there is nothing to talk about at all..none at all..i have accepted the fact that i might grow old alone one day..its just impossible for me to find someone...for 1 thing i dont meet a lot of guys nowadays..2nd, most of the guys i met are either too young,too old, too immature,too mature, not my type or i am not their type..grrr...oh well..better get used to it i guess....

4th my board exam which i have been so anxious about..been wanting to take it for the longest time now...im slacking off...for some reason im not in the mood to study..and my exam is a month away from now..like for example instead of mking this blog i should be studying...grrrr...i hate myselF!!!

and lastly, my work....Everyone is sick!!!its been busy this past few months and it sucks big time...grrr.....im always tired!!! and the freaking unannounced down time awhile ago?!!what's up with that?!!it was a big mess?!!grrr....

ok now that i have complained and drank a beer and probably another one later...i'll probably be fine tom...
this sucks..dont even have anyone to hear my complains or drink with..hay..my life sucks right now...

do you know

deray_113 — Tue, 24 Jul 2007 17:18:44 UT

Do You Know
by Enrique Iglesias

*ping pong*
*ping pong*

Do you know
Do you know

Do you know what it feels like
Loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away
Do you know what it feels like
To be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can’t get it to speak
Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give

Do you know what it feels like
Loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away
Do you know what it feels like
To be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed

How can I love you
How can I love you
How can I love you
How can I love you…
If you just don’t talk to me, babe

I flow through my act
The question is she needed
And decide all the man I can ever be
Looking at the last the years like I did
I could never see us ending like this
Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that’s never happened to me
But after this episode I don’t see
You could never tell the next thing life could be

Do you know what it feels like
Loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away
Do you know what it feels like
To be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed

Do you know what it feels like
Loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away
Do you know what it feels like
To be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed

Do you know
Do you know
Do you know

Do you know what it feels like
Loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away
Do you know what it feels like
To be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed

yey!

deray_113 — Mon, 23 Jul 2007 01:20:20 UT

im so happy...lol!

we went swimming and it was great..although i never got to try the rides...the line was just impossible...it will take you forever to try it..lol

there was a lot of cute guys too...hahaha!

it was tiring...but really fun...

we also went shopping...never got anything for myself but i got my niece a nice jacket...hehe!

it's my sis birthday today and as a gift i had her haircut...lol..and she love it...hahaha

and right now i'm eating PANCIT!!!!

life indeed is good..lol!!!

hahaha...

looks like a bf is the only thing missing..anyone intersted to apply..lol!haha!

san antonio..here i come...lol!

deray_113 — Sat, 21 Jul 2007 13:40:34 UT

we're going to san antonio today...yey!!!

i hope i'll enjoy my 3 days off..coz ive been so tired from work lately...time to unwind...lol!

although i wanted to go swimming today..but looks like its gonna rain...

oh i also wanted to go SHOPPING!!! lol...but i dont want to overspend my money...lol...

anyways, got to go...

random thoughts...

deray_113 — Wed, 18 Jul 2007 16:22:58 UT

i have come to realized that all i have in this world is my relationship with my friends and family..i dont have the riches in the world nor a hobby or sports that im so in to...but i am so damn proud that i do have a good relationship with all those people which i consider important to me..beside...aint that the most important thing in the world...relationships...to be able to value them before anything else...to love and be loved...
i have told one of my friends that i had been so blessed by God in so many ways..that i am just so thankful...and that i feel as if im almost drowning from all of it...maybe she is right...maybe i had finally accepted him as my saviour and that i am now in His palm...that He is now holding me...
and now that i am aware that He is with me...i know that my faith will be challenge more than ever..and that it is my duty to be patient and to listen more to people who has not found Him yet..i have to admit that i sometimes forget and totally loose my patience..but God is good...He had put people in my life to constantly remind me of my purpose in this world...
someday i know i'll be doing more for Him...right now i guess little steps is what i am taking...and in time when I am ready...when He has mold me...I shall take the plunge be wherever He wants me to be...

personality test?

deray_113 — Wed, 20 Jun 2007 05:15:50 UT

PERSONALITY TEST

The Dalai Lama said read it to see if
it works for
you.

Very interesting. Just 4 questions and
the answers
will surprise you.
Do
not cheat by looking up the answers.
The mind is
like a parachute, it
works best when it is opened. This is
fun to do,
but you have to
follow the
instructions very closely. Do not
cheat.

MAKE A WISH BEFORE BEGINNING THE TEST!!

A Warning! Answer the questions as you
go along.

There are only four questions and if
you see them
all before
finishing,
you will not have honest results. Go
down slowly
and do each exercise
as you
scroll down. Don't look ahead. Get
pencil and
paper to write your
answers as you go along. You will need
it at the
end. This is an
honest
questionnaire which will tell you a lot
about your
true self. Give an
answer for each item.

Put the following 5 animals in the
order of your
preference. Cow Tiger
Sheep Horse Pig

Write one word that describes each one
of the
following:

Dog

Cat

Rat

Coffee

Sea

Think of someone (who also knows you
and is
important to you) that you
can relate them to the following
colours (do not
repeat your answer
twice.
Name just one person for each colour.)
Yellow
Orange Red White Green

Finally, write down your favourite
number and your
favourite day of the
week.

Finished? Please be sure that your
answers are
what you REALLY WANT.

Look at the interpretations below: (but
first
before continuing,
repeat
your wish.)

This will define your priorities in
your life.

Cow Signifies CAREER

Tiger Signifies PRIDE

Sheep Signifies LOVE

Horse Signifies FAMILY

Pig Signifies MONEY

Your description of dog implies your
own
personality.
Your description of cat implies the
personality of
your partner. Your
description of rat implies the
personality of your
enemies. Your
description of coffee is how you
interpret sex.
Your description of
the
sea implies your own life.

Yellow: Someone you will never forget

Orange: Someone you consider your true
friend

Red: Someone that you really love

White: Your twin soul

Green: Someone that you will remember
for the rest
of your life

You have to send this message to as
many persons
as your favourite
number
and your wish will come true on the day
that you
put. This is what the
Dalai Lama has said about the
Millennium-just take
a few seconds to
read
it and think. Do not put away this
message, the
mantra will come out
from
your hands in the next 96 hours. You
will have a
very pleasant
surprise. This
is true, even if you are not
superstitious.

Please do this. It is fascinating.

SEND THIS E-MAIL MANTRA TO AT LEAST
FIVE PERSONS
AND YOUR

LIFE WILL IMPROVE

0-4 persons: Your life will improve
slightly

5-9 persons: Your life will improve to
your liking

9-14 persons: You will have at least 5
surprises
in the next three
weeks

15 or more persons: Your life will
improve
drastically and all that
you

piano in the dark

deray_113 — Tue, 19 Jun 2007 05:09:54 UT

PIANO IN THE DARK
Brenda Russell

When I find myself watchin' the time
I never think about all the funny things you said
I feel like it's dead
Where is it leading me now
I turn around in the still of the room
Knowin' this is when I'm gonna make my move
Can't wait any longer
And I'm feeling stronger but oh

Just as I walk (just a little more time) to the door
I can feel your emotion yeah it's pullin' me back
(Just a little more time) back to love you

(CHORUS
Oh no caught up in the middle
I cry just a little when I think of lettin' go
Oh no gave up on the riddle
I cry just a little when he plays piano in the dark

He holds me close like a thief of the heart
He plays a melody born to tear me all apart
The silence is broken
And no words are spoken but oh

Just as I walk (just a little more time) to the door
I can feel your emotion yeah it's pullin' me back
(Just a little more time) back to love you

(REPEAT CHORUS)

Oh the silence is broken
No words are spoken but oh

Just as I walk (just a little more time) to the door
I can feel your emotion (oh baby) oh baby hold me back
(Just a little more time) back to love you

Oh no caught up in the middle
I cry just a little when I think of lettin' go
Oh no gave up on the riddle
I cry just a little ooh I cry I cry I know

(REPEAT CHORUS)

im so tired!!

deray_113 — Wed, 06 Jun 2007 04:10:42 UT

im so tired..i feel like my work is taking away my youth..lol! this couple of weeks has been so busy...everyone's getting sick...
thank god for payday...makes it all worth it..lol!
im so glad im off tomorrow...but looks like i'll be sleeping all day...so much for being productive...
as much as i hate to admit it..corpus christi is kinda boring there is not much place where you can hang out..lol!
we only got one mall..that sucks ryt..but i guess..it keeps me from spending too much money...lol!
I need a break...a vacation..lol!

wazzup y'all!

deray_113 — Sat, 02 Jun 2007 19:11:47 UT

wazzup peeps, just want to invite you all to my clan...We're Filipinos and We Rock... i really hope you'll join it and to hear from you guys and gals real soon...hmmm...if you got any questions please dont hesitate to ask me...tc!
god bless!

http://en.netlog.com/clan/Pinoy_Astig

wazzup!

deray_113 — Thu, 31 May 2007 14:24:59 UT

wazzup?
(musta)

join our clan We're Filipinos and We Rock!
(sali kau sa clan nmin We're Filipinos and We Rock)

http://en.netlog.com/clan/Pinoy_Astig

lol!

ps.
san k p may translation parang sub sa anime...lol!

to all filipinos...

deray_113 — Thu, 31 May 2007 04:36:17 UT

i love this song..hope you'll like it too...

deray_113 — Tue, 29 May 2007 04:49:39 UT

i love this song...
it never fails to melt my heart...
i miss being in love...hay!

In another lifetime
by Gary Valenciano

I could hold on for a hundred years
When all else is gone
I would still be here
In a memory of things yet unseen
I’d remember all that we’ve never been
And I cannot wait to see
What life has in store for me

[chorus]
In another lifetime
It would be forever
In another world
Where you and I
Could be together
In another set of chances
I’d take the one’s I’d missed
And make you mine
If only for a time
My life would matter
In another life

And I’d stay as strong and I’d stay as true
And you’d have forever now to think it through
Coz I believe what wasn’t meant to be
Wasn’t meant for now and
Someday you’ll see
In a place and time we never know
I’d be standing there waiting for you
[Repeat Chorus]

[Bridge]
You would be mine
But until that time is now
I’d be holding on somehow
[Repeat Chorus]

[Coda]
But until that time
I’ll be holding onto forever
Until another life

hay...

deray_113 — Sun, 27 May 2007 04:52:41 UT

I am so confused I know I made the right decision but something inside me is questioning it…doubt …if I asked you to wait for me…I know I would only be selfish because I can’t promise you that I will reserve myself for you..dont wait for me…hmm…waiting..it sucks…ive been there and I know it’s the worst feeling…I have to admit that part of me don’t agree with this decision at all…I guess im a girl of black and white and no gray areas..i always have been…
your persistence is one of your best quality… now that im pushing you away…it was too much that you’re ready to give up…I know that no matter how much I hurt you...you will still try to understand me…and I’m thankful for that...your kind heart makes it so hard for me to say goodbye to you..such fragile heart…and yet you still put up a face that shows such courage just to assure me that you’ll be fine with this decision and not make me worry… i was hurting you but you were still more concern of my happiness and of my feelings…I don’t even deserve that…I know how long you’ve been waiting for me to finally give you a chance to express how much you adore me…and for me to feel the same way about you..
I hate myself for hurting a man who have done nothing else but to be there and care for me, and perhaps have love me in ways I’ll never know now…I wanna stay firm in my decision but you just break my heart and make me feel that maybe I should give it a chance.. I know its impossible now and I know you feel the same way too…should I just give you up…im not saying that im in love with you…well, at least not yet…but then again I might end up not being at that state at all…but something about it just feels right…do you think it’s worth the risk? I cannot promise you the future all I have is what I feel and think right now and its not even that much… I might just end up hurting you more if I ask you to stay..im so good in pushing people away, ain’t i? hmm...can you ask me not to do that…can you tell me that you don’t care if it’ll hurt you more…that all that matters is that I’m giving this a chance? Tell me that I shouldn’t be thinking of tomorrow for all we have is right now…do you think we can pull it off…so many things are at risk here…will you take it with me…by the way, I can be demanding…do you think you can handle that..if I give you this letter would you think that im playing with your heart? I mean just this morning I broke your heart by saying not to wait for me…
Hmm…I don’t want to regret anything but I don’t want to be so rush in my decisions…and asking you this is probably like a 50 – 50 decision..i might be rushing my decision but if I don’t I might regret letting this chance passed by me…im miles away from you…im coming home in two years…will you wait for me… in the end, I might be not worth the trouble at all..but its funny to think that you have showed me so may times that I am…*sigh* im selfish right but this is how I feel…I know you’ll probably try to understand it…im such a bad person…but im true to myself…

from mike yap...

deray_113 — Fri, 25 May 2007 23:14:06 UT

cherish by the association

Cherish is the word I use to describe
All the feeling that I have hiding here
for you inside
You don't know how many times I've
wished that I had told you
You don't know how many times I've
wished that I could hold you
You don't know how many times I've
wished that I could
Mold you into someone who could
Cherish me as much as I cherish you
Perish is the word that more than
applies
To the hope in my heart each time I
realize
That I am not gonna be the one to share
your dreams
That I am not gonna be the one to share
your schemes
That I am not gonna be the one to share
what
Seems to be the life that you could
Cherish as much as I do yours
Oh I'm beginning to think that man has
never found
The words that could make you want me
That have the right amount of letters,
just the right sound
That could make you hear, make you see
That you are drivin' me out of my mind
Oh I could say I need you but then
you'd realize
That I want you just like a thousand
other guys
Who'd say they loved you With all the
rest of their lies
When all they wanted was to touch your
face, your hands
And gaze into your eyes
Cherish is the word I use to describe
All the feeling that I have hiding here
for you inside
You don't know how many times I've
wished that I had told you
You don't know how many times I've
wished that I could hold you
You don't know how many times I've
wished that I could
Mold you into someone who could
Cherish me as much as I cherish you
And I do cherish you
And I do cherish you
Cherish is the word

take me out of the dark

deray_113 — Fri, 25 May 2007 18:28:45 UT

Gary Valenciano
Take Me Out Of The Dark

Just what is it in me?
Sometimes I just don't know
What keeps me in Your love,
Why you never let me go

And though you're in me now,
I fall and hurt you still
My Lord, please show me how
To know just how you feel

You have forgiven me
Too many times it seems
I feel I'm not what you might call
A worthy Christian after all

And though I love You so
Temptation finds its way to me

Teach me to trust in You
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won't give me what I can't bear

Take me out of the dark, my Lord
I don't wanna be there

You've never left my side
You gave Your hand to me to hold
Oh Jesus, I'm no longer in the cold

And yet, I leave You there
When I feel satisfied
I'd like to thank You every day
Not only when I feel that way

I've never known a Man
Who'd give His life for sinners like me
And yet, because He loves us so
He's promised us eternity
And we can have that promise
And be His if we have faith
And just believe

Teach us to trust in you
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
We just forget
You won't give us what we can't bear

Take us out of the dark, My Lord
'Cause we don't want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
We don't wanna be there, My Lord

Trust in You with all my heart
Lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won't give me what I can't bear

Take me out of the dark, My Lord
Cause we don't want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
I don't want to be there

i am so mad!!!!

deray_113 — Sun, 13 May 2007 19:50:23 UT

i am so PISSED!
some jerk scratch my car!!! it was so long!
i just got my new car last friday...my baby is just three days...THREE DAYS OLD!
i mean what the hell is wrong with ths people?!!!
its not my fault that they cant afford to buy a new car!!!
i work so hard to be able to buy a nice car and this is what i get!!!
i am so pissed!!

my poor baby raven!!!
grrrrr!!!