Yen Devil's blog

Where i am && Where we are

YenIsMe — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 09:39:12 UT

Not easy to stand till nw and get this life...
No much trouble...
Bt where i am?

Finally....Yea...finally...i get bak myself....Get some other member gether, new mindset goin......
Feel dats long time no write blog n gonna rock...
I get bk myself in a lost position....If nt stable again,will be return to BAD days....
Tomorrow never die...wont die wont feel it...I am still standing dat position to c ing u to feeling u...

Tired + Sleepy + Down + Upset = Energy & Experience... Where to i find it all...

Bye n Bye... hope will come bak to Blog-ing again..

Alkohol hacked my life...

YenIsMe — Mon, 05 Jan 2009 02:51:08 UT

Smthg trying to get it, bt could nt be success.
Smthg hope to get it, oso wont come true.
Bt smthg nt important to me, always be wif me.

Smthg dat hope so long at here, try to get hard to success, finally i make it... hepi..enjoy....Bt slowly stolen by other ppl....is sad n damn mad... Dats is my first step to do it at here, dats oni c my future at here... I quite hepi u get it, bt i quite sad bcoz u nt tel me infront of me... Work n Privacy is different, in my life,i very hate ppl lie.... bt u keep lie-ing.......

Wats wrong wif me?? Calsberg....Heinekeen...Tiger.... Dunhill or Marlbollo.... Is return to my bad life b4, i noe dat nt i wan it happend....bt always be wif me....

Cny almost come....coming soon...is time to planning my money hw to spend.... reali stress...My job nw still nt stable for me.. Wat is should do??? I reali hope my life still can hack by other someone...bt i noe i cant accept anymore... still need times to settle it, when timing come, can c a lot of things, including smthg i hope nt da true n smthg is true......

Dats day,i has meat a ppl hu is understand me y i cum here..y i planning at here...chat so long....at last, dat ppl recommend me dat i muz continue my life b4, is benefit myself.... Mayb juz oni at here...Bt afterward, i reali think dat nid return to my life b4, reali so enjoy....Juz oni dat moment i get bk myself...so hepi...so nice... Bt juz can be a memory... pass memory...

We gonna rock, i still hard rock...So hw?? Juz rock it man....Let's rock man.....

Xmas is over.. New yr coming

YenIsMe — Mon, 29 Dec 2008 12:41:41 UT

Hey Yen "+_+"

Xmas is over, games is over too, wont continue, bt new yr is coming....hw?? I wont do anythings....
All ppl mention dat Singapore xmas feeling so nice n best, y juz oni me cant feel it?? Y recently a lot of tis ??? Question mark.........

New place is a turning point for me tis i got mention b4, bt at there, feel likes nt new.... All is same, all is close, all is noe it...... Bt nt enuf, nt enuf for me... dats nt wat i wan...

Nw the life, izzit i wan it?? izzit is my dream?? izzit can success?? dats all nt wat i wan... nt a time to go bk, nt a time to stop... is time to release.. is time to go.... I dun think i still in da game, i nt sure bout dat izzit i m out?? or knock out.... KO.... god damn it... character still be there.... bt nvr reach glory.... Win or lose.... Fate.... Fucking Awesome Those Extreme............

Hope xxx will hepi xmas n new yr coming soon...dun sick it, muz take k... U noe,dat day was rain here, my mind first think is worrying.. wan sms tel dat " raining,wear more clothes n dun walk,muz talk bus... "
Bt i din, coz stupid mind oni will think like tis....shit man...wat kind of my mind inside... Juz for u xxx

At last, i dun wan bullshit so much at here, i nid take a gd rest, relax tis few days, 0101 will get a new change..big change...i wont stay on da spot... look at me..my eyes.. u will die... i will support myself... Yen..still can stand it??

Peace here... peace da colourfull world...

Xmas Games.....Hard to play

YenIsMe — Thu, 18 Dec 2008 19:03:20 UT

1 2
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: " Admiralty Interchange " , follow da same way to go hum , same floor wif me, when reach.......
: " Ok, gdbye,gd9, c u tml "
: " Eh... u still got things inside my bag.."

Suck...bad idea...same idea... bt reali nt dare to take out, feeling dat things so heavy, so stress.....
Xmas almost reach lo...izzit my game is on nw?? Every xmas, i oso will hang a big xmas flower ring infront my room (my door), everytimes i walk in walk out,oso will get da nice sound.. " din din " , tis sound feel so sweet,feel everytimes listen it oso will get best things coming soon... Bt tis yrs, at outstation, first time at outstation pass xmas, bored... lonely... muz try smthg new, at last, i choose dat ring to hang on ur neck.... hope u will like it, coz i reali so love it... silver white look likes a flower, jewellry look likes a snow, n hang on ur neck ( look likes sumone ) , izzit u r da one??

Xmas games so hard to play, i duno i still is same character anot, bt izzit reali nid i prove it??
Y u wil stay arnd my heart, izzit accidently walk in my heart.. or is too concern me??
When gaming half way, always got some question or problem to solve it .. izzit tis is da rules to win? or to success??
If i win it, will get lose smthg, i hope dun win, i prefer hold da games..bt during da game, got save a lot of sweet memory, nice memory, sad, mad, unhepi, everythings wont forget...
" ai zai ji yi zhong zhao ni " mayb tis song is suitable for me...
Sumtimes, said dat like to c me smile, c me hepi...actually is i more like to c u smile, c u hepi... When work stress or unhepi, after meet u when c ur face, i ady recover well...nice medicine.. My face cant cover anythings infront u, coz u will understand me... Even i pretend hepi,smile...still is lose for u....
Did i lose tis game?? or hold?? Bt feeling likes... even i dun wan lose tis game, i ady lose for u... lose so much?? same wif u hw deep u step inside my heart....

: " laptop bag heavy?? tired?? nid help?? " reali nt dare to ask...
Purple..purpur... bcum blurblur......

Bt i dun think i blur, coz IMM(working place),JP(new place),Sitex.. Wat means?? i think dat u will play tis game well, i oso nid do smthg, u cant play alone... During da games, sum purple life is arnd me, i keep look arnd dat all purple colour, life keep changing... Always try to keep on move... moving to new colourfull life...

Tis blog i tried to taip few times ady, finally to9 i make it... Hope Xmas games will get sum new idea, new strategi to success it, even i cant win, bt i hope i get wat i wan...

To9 no rock, no peace... Worlds is damn hot nw, hot fighting.... Hope will slp well,get well soon...

Last train 12:26

YenIsMe — Mon, 08 Dec 2008 08:55:40 UT

Still rmb dat..... "smile a bit la,dun look so down" ... Suprise,hw u get my hp num??? My mind blank a while then juz reply it... Start from dat nite.... Chit Chat is ady be my part of life... When i reach SG, i tot nid spend long time oni will get gd life , hw noe ... still got ppl will chat wif me... acc me.. concern me... each other will do it...... Last train is chance to each other to say " gd bye " , Last train oso is a chance for each other spend a long times........ We try to walk arnd one hour arrived hum, between dat one hour, we oso try walk for dat way we nvr will arrive... amazing.... impossible... Each other will think sum idea to meet when work... b4 work,after work........ same... Promise will smile infront u while c u,sumtimes will broken promise is bcoz i forgotten ... dat oso bcoz related to smthg unhepi.... "smile a bit, dun look so down " Y nid me smile?? mayb i juz smile infront u... infront other ppl mayb is nt true... All u can c... All u can feel it.... Can u c inside my eyes ... i dun think so............ Mayb last train for next time will be bak early,mayb last train for next time is for each other to meet again... Last train for everytime, each other will be turn arnd,bk to bk, mayb i will turn bk to look at u, or mayb u will did it same as me... bt we nvr turn arnd as a same time... dat is fate... DKNY is my first job at M'sia to earn much, i hope dat DKNY will b first present for sumone when at SG... Last train 12:26 .... nvr forget,nvr forget smile,nvr forget look at ur eyes,nvr forget to turn arnd.... no peace...no love....

Home sick

YenIsMe — Sun, 07 Dec 2008 02:48:41 UT

Finally....first blog after my singapore journey..... B4 arrived hum,ady prepare dat will getting change a lot,bt is out of my mind for real nw....sad...reali sad....whole nite lying thinking smthg n moody....feeling down.... Here they got a sweet n nice n big n gd hum............... compare me at sg work,suck....nt a point of dats............ World is getting change nw,they change a lot,improve a lot,feel so sweet..........bt,me...feel like still on da spot... nvr improve anythings..... Nw i oni feel dat b4 dat "me" is passed a gd n best life at here,mayb at sg getting bully n pass sum suck life oni will get tis feel......bt,dun lie myself as true..... Hum is hum.......they can stand it,i still hv a long way to go....keep oni it u alls.... i feel proud n hepi for u all...i noe myself nid hw to mantain n control at there..... Sg journey ... continue.... Nw,i will love myself,will make a gds for myself.... Coz i m still rock......Peace........

My queen n My heart.... 0(=)0

YenIsMe — Sun, 15 Jun 2008 12:52:25 UT

oh no my queen....i reali nt take gd care u n always forget u still beside me....... today i reali damn sad,my heart felt dat pain n pity....reali....even anythings beside me,i oso is treat it by my family member...today, i felt i so sorry to u my queen....almost wan cry...... i love u....u muz stand it....bt easy gv up ok....i will beside u....u muz eat much,drink much n take care when i nt at hum....muaxxxxxxxxxxxx........for u queen.....peace

21 yrs at tis world

YenIsMe — Thu, 05 Jun 2008 17:51:42 UT

21 yrs in tis world ady,so fast ooo.....sad...nthg can improve....every yrs oso same one...bt tis yrs oso nice la...a lot of frens is rmb my bday..... Yen ah Yen.....u muz think propert u neeed walk which road again ok...dun walk wrong again.....muz open up ur mind n be kindly.....from nw muz be more hornest n be more greatfull to success bout future.....need start planning nw.....mayb oversea is my next step....wait me,i will cum n success......peace yea.....tis yrs will rock again....haha....

Beggin of June nw.....Hope everythings will be fine

YenIsMe — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 18:14:51 UT

Aih......ady june nw,wat will happend on me,hope all is fine....Opppsss...izzt tis friday is my day??? haha....tis yrs is different wif b4,coz i juz release freedom from study...so relax nw., no feel any pressure,juz felt sum dissapointed to myself,coz every yrs,oso same like tis,nthg improve n special...izzit i m cheap or outdate??? wat i get is tis 21 yrs live at tis earth?? God is like ur dad n ur mum...when u need,will care u...bt when u no need,they oso always will beside u...hope god will look at me n my action..dun let me goin to other way....Soli for so long no write blog,coz so busy n sad....no mood to write...nw is chance for record my life for still continue goin on...Peace..........

I promise wont lose for twice......no....hell no.....

YenIsMe — Sun, 13 Jan 2008 11:49:04 UT

Since many yrs ago,my interest to Perak is ady so hot,tis muz apperiate it...bt nw....no...hell no....when change person,i never win again when selection...is ady two times lose on his hand....from nw on...no chance again....i promise i wont lose for twice....i think nw wif prk is ending fate nw...mayb will join other state bt dun blame me when face me again...i nt gd for bully....thanx for my coach so support me untill nw..u r my best coach in my life.....peace.....

merry xmas to all n myself

YenIsMe — Tue, 25 Dec 2007 17:46:52 UT

nw juz over12 pm....xmas is over.....wat oso is over....nw feel sum sad ,so write smthg to my profile here....Xmas everyone oso is hepi...me juz stay at hum or bak college early..nthg special..mayb is grow up already,any festival oso likes no moods already..aih..i oso duno...after xmas,new year almost cuming jor..bt still need study...when holiday,oso need rush assignment,is bad...after new yrs,already wan exam......aih...sad,mad n suffer...bt luckily,xmas i oso got go out wif frens....polor ground..most cannot forget...so shy n so hepi....bt duno y,nw sudden will sad n mad,mayb pressure...is too pressure....exam,financial,family,works n sports...izzit i cannot handle it all or i will failed soon....i duno..pressure is wan me die lo....so jelous n envy many ppl hu is so hepi n enjoy..nthg pressure.......aih..when i oni can be likes dat???? god will u noe me so suffer nw??plz....help me more......thanx.....peace....

like nt very confident....bt izzit my luck??need me follow??

YenIsMe — Mon, 26 Nov 2007 11:45:52 UT

i oso duno i can do it anot...so damn down le..so damn no confident....if cant...reali need follow dat idea??izzit i still need wasted time on it or wat?? hu can teach me?? i reali no confident lo..already second yrs to do dat,still same....suck......afterward i need relax relax....i dun think anymore...peace..........

Yeah..today juz hepi..mayb too short...

YenIsMe — Sun, 11 Nov 2007 21:07:49 UT

today juz sponsor by DAE DO n my club...sure is hepi....get many equiment,elouns will get soon oso...izzit means i need to do well nw..cant wasted time nw..or wat?? i reali need stop my idea b4..come on..so hard oni reach my lovely style..nw reali need me focus on dats things?? omg...get sponsor,sure is pressure more la..100% hepi n 100% pressure..wat is dats?? hopefully can do well on dat..mayb juz half yrs...juz try it..peace.....

y again n again

YenIsMe — Wed, 17 Oct 2007 14:28:50 UT

wtf suck college....again n again,study so hard,finally will disappointed me...god damn it...when i so hardwork to study,always will make me suffer first,then duno hw to make decision.....nw u wan me hw?? tel me??ok...i already so so suffer nw..if reali nt suit me,i so kind one,can accept anythings happend..bt dun always is finally oni show me dats is bad...ok...shit...

eat,sleep,wacth n play

YenIsMe — Mon, 08 Oct 2007 11:01:54 UT

tis holiday oo,bored die lo,is first time i dun hv work,so bored....aih...bt oso gd la,hv many times find frens to chat n eat...tis holiday went many place ady,bt nt take much photo...my hp almost broken,so sad...plan to buy new...aih...so suffer oo,many decision wan me choose n handle...izzit timing prolem or is me weak?? nobody can help me...juz me....peace...

遗失的早晨。。。今天，我找回了。

YenIsMe — Tue, 11 Sep 2007 00:18:28 UT

这几个星期，都在打仗，打到满身血，食欲也很好，有时睡很多，有时像现在一样，根本睡不下。这几天，都是这样的心情，这样的时间，这样的发呆。。每天一到这个时候，都会找东西吃，我满懒的，所以，我都会弄美禄喝，吃面包，粮食等。。可是，今天，心血来潮，感到要出去吃，所以，就出去走走咯。。。一出门，就听到鸟声，天气还蛮喜欢的，像云顶，不冷不热，可能快要下雨了。。我家门口，就是学校，还蛮多学生上学呢，很开心哦，就这样，让我回忆起当年的童年和中学期间，我走着走，眼前，看到一家餐馆，就坐下点了些早餐吃，这家店，蛮多学生用餐呢，这也让我一个人闷闷得坐着回想起当年和朋友用的早餐，有说有笑，蛮想念的。。。。一会儿，我的炒粉到了，还是加粉的哦。。嘻嘻，我一边享用一边也回想着当年幼儿园的炒粉，真好吃。。。。很快，就给我吃到光了。。。然后，当然回家啦，一个人的慢步，刚刚，种种情景，让我回味着童年和中学的味道，我看着学生们，个子全都这么小，是否我成长了？还是老了？？我再看看我自己，我现在是学院生了，我也是否拥有大学的回忆呢？？我自己也不敢回答。。。过后，到家了，回到房间，刚好，下起雨来了，感觉还蛮幸运，蛮不错。。。。其实，刚刚都没有什么饱，就去弄了一杯咖啡喝，收拾心情，有开始打仗咯。。。。

Tis month so important.....???

YenIsMe — Mon, 03 Sep 2007 09:12:18 UT

Yeah...hepi bday to Malaysia..merderka...Bt after 12am of merderka,is times to start my hardwork to study loo.....aiyor...sienx loo...pressure is always beside me....exam untill 19 of month,bt 8 of next month is start new sems again....sienx lo..suck..cant work,no income liao...poor me...tis month reali so important ma?? so scare,reali so scare...afterward wat will happend,wat i will feel,wat i should do,where i should go...think more scare more..

i always lose for luck......

YenIsMe — Mon, 20 Aug 2007 14:15:06 UT

y is me again....so hard to train n fight,juz oni untill quarter....semi oso nt gv me go...damn all reff....all no standard one...luckly i show my performence to all ppl c,if nt i sure pity one...i think nw all oso carefull me already..haha...kl hv him,i prk oso hv me,bt my heart nt at prk la...duno y...i find other chance first....still young..haha...

Final week already

YenIsMe — Sun, 12 Aug 2007 14:17:55 UT

This weekend so so bc oo..tired n enjoy...morning i went taiping to meet the club member,then evening i go bak ipoh to pc fair...so so many ppl oo..hot die le...bt the prce is ok la..same same lo...then at 9..sure go wacth summer concert la....go there i already round few times,then oni can get my parking....huuuu...sienx.....i stand so behind n look the singer like my finger..bt is enjoy da song la...then sunday whole day traning...is my last preparetion....feel nt enough training bt feel confident more than b4,mayb no pressure ba..anyway,thusday need go le...gd luck yen...peace...c u at kelantan my gold

haha....6 yrs already.....

YenIsMe — Sun, 22 Jul 2007 06:40:29 UT

6 yrs ago....nw modern change le,so so difference...from nw,i m nt a Prk guy already,i will be a kl guy for future..manyb ba,c next month macth hw....damn PTA.....damn coach...since 6 yrs ago,i wont fail if i dun get in to frst team in Prk,bt nw is difference le,i will choose kl..so soli Prk,act i love Prk so much,i oso a fans of Prk,i so proud can fight for Prk for 6 yrs include Sukma...bt nw,so soli,dun blame me if i do wat for my future..c u all Prk guy at next month,bt i will change my task to be urs all guy....KL,i will coming nw....god bless me..peace.....88 Prk

haha...last weekend so hepi la

YenIsMe — Sun, 15 Jul 2007 16:33:59 UT

haha...last weekend reali os hepi n so relax...so long no taste it le...i went many place n playing..so hepi..i thnk in tis year,most hepi is last weekend.. wont 4get bout it...when i been there,i 4get all my sad n pressure..juz like a god place..nthg to be angry n mad..juz oni hepi n enjoy....if u all wan noe wat happend,u can visit my photo album...thanx god,i noe u r looking me nw...reali thanx..i will do my best...peace

After one year first fight

YenIsMe — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 14:40:54 UT

After one year already,tis weekend saturday is my first fight again,new challenge...new category....duno hw da performence nw,hope is suprise gd...if get it,i will go to kelantan fight,s big competition..bt if lose oso nvm,coz end of tis month i will go kl fight..hope both of it will atleats win one macth..dats enough for me..come on man..believe urself..is last macth,do well.....

My last macth

YenIsMe — Wed, 27 Jun 2007 03:14:35 UT

tis is my last macth in my life..nw i start join bak my club trainng for champonship...tis julai i will be play for state macth..if lose,sure is my last macth,bt is win,i win fight for my state again to play in national championship...win n lose is nt important to me,i juz wan enjoy my last macth oni..bcoz i already stop play one year,coz last year i so angry wif my macth in Sukma..cry n sad..i oso told myself even dats is my last macth,mayb nt enough enjoy..so nw tis reali is my last macth n my life..reali wan stop le..i hope i can win a title for my last macth....stay cool man..u can do it..juz 4get bout all moody things,enjoy new challenge...

Again...n again...

YenIsMe — Thu, 14 Jun 2007 13:18:50 UT

again..y will argue again...y juz oni will make me sad n mad...always make me cant concerntrate n study,y will so bad ending,is me do smthg worng step u unlikely...is tis punishment or present of my birthday????If my birthday present i wish i can dun wan received,or if my punishment can punish me harderd,let me die directly??plz....

Recently i heard some music from taiwan singer..name call CHAI MING YOU..he song name is WO KE YI..nt bad..bt oso cant recover my mood nw...so when i hear again,i will enjoy da mood...peace..