Blog 95
Check My blog everyday please. There should always be something new. I do not always have time for individual messages.
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My First Love
My First Love
You were the first love of my life
The one I wanted for my wife
You were such an inspiration
Gave me love and dedication
You cared for me when I was ill
Gave me warmth when I had a chill
Forgave me when I pitched a fit
And not once did you ever quit
When others would have given up
You would gladly bring me a cup
You were always understanding
When I was my most demanding
You made me laugh when I was sad
You helped calm me when I was mad
You washed my clothes and fixed me meals
Helped me through so many ordeals
To me that really means a lot
More than any present you bought
You would always answer my knock
You were always my solid rock
Yet you always had a soft touch
You helped me grow and taught me much
No one could ever outshine you
I always knew your love was true
Even when we were miles apart
You were always here in my heart
I never took you to the prom
But I will love you always mom -
Glorious Day
Glorious Day
Hello. Tell me how have you been my friend?
It is so lovely to see you again
It seems so long that you have been away
Now you're back and it's a glorious day
Up in the sky, the sun is shinning bright
All of the birds are singing in delight
The Branches on the trees are full of leaves
And pretty butterflies dance in the breeze
All of the flowers are full of new blooms
They fill the air up with their sweet perfumes
In every pasture the grass is green
It's the most beautiful sight ever seen
I am so glad you are once again here
It brings me so much happiness and cheer
Can you feel the excitement in my voice
Together my dear friend let us rejoice
Oh my! It is such a glorious day
I am so happy you are back my way -
The Girl Of My Dreams
The Girl Of My Dreams
Sometimes I sit here and I wonder
If there is a chance I will find her
The girl I sometimes see in my dreams
The one for whom my lonely heart screams
Is there even a hope and a prayer?
That she is really out there somewhere
How far and wide do I have to look?
Is there some secret spell in a book?
Some magic words that I need to speak
To help me find the love that I seek
I am tired of being alone
Sitting here next to a silent phone
I just want someone that I can hold
Every night be it hot or cold
Someone with whom I can share a laugh
Someone to bring out my better half
Someone I do not have to convince
She can turn this frog into a prince
Someone who is the answer it seems
To each and every one of my dreams
Can there be somewhere she exists
Is she out there waiting for my kiss?
Where is the one to love that I seek
Is she on a distant mountain peak?
Where is the girl of whom I dream?
Is she near a river or a stream?
Does she live in some desert ghost town?
Is there anywhere she can be found?
Oh how I hope the day will soon come
When I will finally find the one
And then we will stand at love's altar
Hoping that our hearts do not falter
As together we both say "I do"
And then my dreams finally come true -
No Butterfly Today
I sit and wait all alone everyday
For the butterfly to again come my way
But I guess it was not ever meant to be
She is still not anywhere that I can see
I guess she flew away to grass much greener
Still I guess I was blessed to have once seen her
She was such a beauty beyond all belief
Yet I should not suffer any pain or grief
For butterflies are meant to always fly free
And not stuck behind glass in someone’s study
Still I wish that I too could go soaring high
Floating in the wind’s breeze like a butterfly
And not having a single care in the world
Just hoping to be admired by some girl
Instead I am stuck behind this pane of glass
As each day after day slowly comes to pass
My case is now sitting here collecting dust
Its joints and hinges have all begun to rust
Leaving me yearning for the days long gone by
When I could go soaring like a butterfly -
Upon A Butterfly
As I came upon a butterfly yesterday
I was sure when she saw me, she would fly away
She was the most beautiful thing I ever saw
Yet as I was staring at her in complete awe
She instead did something that really surprised me
She just stared at me back and did not try to flee
Why would anything that is so full of such beauty
Ever be interested in simple old me
This is what the butterfly told me in reply
As she flapped her wings to take her into the sky
It is far more important what we have inside
And not the colors we may show on the outside
Then with a butterfly kiss placed upon my lips
Away from my view did my butterfly eclipse
Leaving me to hope that soon one bright sunny day
She will again be flying back upon my way -
Join My Fantasy Racing Leagues.
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To My Friends
Sorry I have not been on here or returning messages. I have been suffering from computer problems and sometimes the physical inability to use the computer. Sometimes I do not have the strength or coordination to type and have trouble even using the mouse at times. I hope to be more active online soon.
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Lisa Passed Away
I was informed today that Lisa passed away Monday night Oct 22. I still loved her after all that we went through. Maybe in a different time and place things would have turned out better. For now I am going to hold on to the good times we did share.
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Rough Draft
Everyday now I feel so empty deep inside
It feels like my passion for everything has died
My friends ask me how I am doing all the time
I just lie to them and say I am doing fine
I am no longer the person that I once was
I have no answers other than just because
It is just so hard for me to try to explain
I see no sunshine in my forecast, just rain
It hurts to be awake and it hurts to be asleep
It is like someone has stabbed my soul so deep
I feel like I am trapped behind my own prison's walls
Not sure if I even want some to ever answer my calls
I no longer know what it is like to be alive anymore
I am in so much pain and everything about me feels sore
I am not sure how much better off I would really be
If my cage door was opened and I was allowed to fly free
Maybe I would soar to close to the sun and get burned
No lesson from my past mistakes having been learned
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Lisa is Gone
Lisa left yesterday. She is going to NY to be with someone else. I wish him better luck than I had. I am doing OK. I had put my life on hold waiting for her to get better, yet everything I did for her was not enough. She got upset because sometimes I chose to spend time with my kids and because I had so many online friends who, as many of you know. I rarely communicated with, The life of happiness I thought I would have was Lisa was quickly realized not to be due to her inability and unwillingness to take care of her health or acknowledge that she was in any way at fault for the way her life has turned out. She wants someone to totally take care of her and for her to have to do nothing in return. Because I was willing to do that, but without always a smile on my face and not every day being perky because of my own health issues, it was not good enough for her. I never denied her anything and sacrificed a lot to no avail. Well after one night without her here, I see I have lost little and gained so much.