Blog 215
I write thats who I am.. friends tell me you can get to know me better through my writings so here you go. do a comment if you want or rate them, if you want.
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update.
was in the hospital friday night, what i thought was pulled muscles were actually contractions, i signed in around 9:05 and didn't leave till around 4 in the morning the next day. I was told i was just dehydrated and to drink water, since then i haven't really eaten, just haven't been hungry, and thrown up more now then i did in the beginning, lol, my luck. but i have an amazing husband who was there for me. i can't wait till my little girl is here in my arms, and i guess she can't wait either lol.
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....Help?
...so last night.. i had a freak out.. decided i couldn't go back to that fucking place (school) i'll never pass the Istep and i've got a lil girl on the way.. she's going to have a fuck-up for a mom... right now the only thing i got going on for me is josh, who's always there even doing my freaks out... idk.. every time i think about going back to school i just freak out a lil then i start thinking of lily coming and i freak out more; worrying somethings going to happen to her... idk guess i'm just freaking out again.. any ideas on how to stop the freak outs and get my butt back in school, because i know i need to go.. i just can't stand being there, i get bitchy and wanting to kill people and back talking the teachers and get stress out, which i don't need now. So any ideas?
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so what's been up
i'm prego and i found a great guy, i'm engaged and i get my ultra-sound tomorrow.. (really short version if you wanna know more message me)
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SURPRISED!!
So i wasn't sure how to tell the people i know i mean see face to face so i figure a blog is easier, me and josh are planning to get married next year in October but before that we're going to be parents!! for all you concerned people out there we are planning on keeping the child We're planning on me moving in with him Christmas break in December so we can be together for the last few months before the baby is born, I'm about 2 and a half months pregnant and we do not yet know the sex but when that's known I'll do a blog about that.
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question
how would you ask your perfect one to marry you?
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Nicholas Aaron Waller your a fucking pig you're prolly lowe
Nick your an ass... you ask me to dump my bf and when it happens and we're dating we start fighting for no damn reason.. when I say we need to stop talking for a bit NOT BREAK UP you decided to break up with me and not fucking tell me!! how do you fucking think I feel when I look on your myspace about to leave you a damn comment saying i love you and i see another girl saying about time you change your status.. that's it nicholas waller I NEVER see the word NEVER want to speak to you again. I never want to see that you've looked at my page after you read this if you do you're being blacklisted. I hate your fucking guts now nicholas aaron waller and i wish never to see or hear from you again. i fee sorry for all the girls you have roped in along the years. I hope you get what you have coming to you.
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How stupid
how stupid is this? i've known this guy for six years.. we're dated on and off and fought but who hasn't.. I finally thought I was over him.. guess that was a lie.. he got a girlfriend so I haven't really talked to him lately.. but like a dip shit I look on his facebook and saw a pic of him and the now girlfriend.. and for some reason i just wanted to hit something and cry.. and not a lot can get me to cry.. idk what to do..
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The last few months I've been in a fight with someone I care deeply for.. It's a stupid one to.. he doesn't like who I'm dating.. anyways, the past few months i've gotten myself deeper into a hole with him and now i'm close to losing him.. I met him shortly after making this.. so i've known him for about 6 years.. anyways if he's reading this i just want him to know I don't want to lose him and that when ever I'm talking to him all seems right and i know i can tell him anything.. Anyway, I just won't we're able to fix our relationship... because I DON'T WANT TO LOSE HIM!!
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story
tried as I could, I couldn't get mom to tell me were we were going all she would say is "you'll see, now sit still" dad just drove not saying a word, once in a while he would give mom a glare, I began to wonder if it was about that fight I heard last night. I wasn't going to ask and it seemed like they weren't going to say. we sat in silent for a few more miles before I leaned in between the driver and passenger seats saying, this time to my dad "Where are we going? is this for my birthday?" "STOP WITH THE QUESTIONS LILITH! YOU'LL FIND OUT WHEN WE GET THERE." I just sat back trying not to cry, my mom and dad had never, in almost eighteen years, had never screamed at me.
mom looked back and giving me a weak smile said "sweety, dad's sorry he's upset because we're going to my dad." that got me I thought all my mom's family had died. "your dad? i thought your family had died before I was born." "not my dad, you see sweety daddy and your grandpa never got along so when my mom died we kind of fell apart." dad mumbled something, I couldn't make it out, and mom whipped around to agrue with him. While they did that I dug around in my backpack. when I found my Ipod, finally, I turned it on and stuck my headphones on. when I came to, I had fell asleep, mom was curled up in the passenger seat sleeping and dad was still staring straight ahead, only different was he was drinking coffee out of a to-go cup. when I glanced next to me I saw a bag from a fast food place.
I leaned up and whispered, "dad why does mom's dad want to see us now? why did you two have a falling out?" dad took his eyes off the road for a second to look at me before saying "he wants to meet you Lilith, and the reason for falling out?.. let's say he didn't like your mom dating me, let alone marrying me." "why didn't he want you and mo to marry? you guys are perfect together." just then a hand touched my shoulder. jumping slightly i turned around to see mom looking at me. strange how I never noticed how red mom's eyes were. "Sweety, we'll tell you when we get there, now go back to sleep." I leaned back and closed my eyes.
When I woke up the second time, the car had came to a stop and mom was turning around to shake me away. when she saw my eyes were open she said softly "Time to meet grandpa Aiden." at that dad mumbled something that sounded like god help us.
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HELP!!!
how are you suppose to know where you believe? is it where you were born? or is it out of state? is it with ppl you love and have known all your life? or is it with a stranger who is protecting you from miles away...
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