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Dilemna

I_Am_A_Martian — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 11:51:57 UT

Am callin this one " d dilemna"
have u ever thought uve had a dream come true
and end up confused
testing ur mental capacity
this isnt how it was meant to b
wonder if she will c
ma point eventually
but thatz jus me
been wishin ona star since i was a baby
n i prolly still will b
til tha end of eternity
am usedta pple callin me greedy
maybe i must b
must b summink they see
that gives them tha need to label me
some thingz in live i walk thru ina daze u c
bouncin around crazily
tryna find tha one for me
but time n again it lookz like shez evading me
but am tired of chasin constantly
when will ma rest come
yeah itz alright for some
they prefer their lives "hum-drum"
but am ona mission
still not looking tho
if it makes sense
i just go with the flow
thatz tha pretense
feels like love is past-tense
doesnt exist anymore
coz everytime i think i feel it
something shakez me to tha core
why should i sekkle for less
or even second best
why do i have to go thru emotional stress
relationships under duress
so the wordz ive uttered
suddenly mean nothing
am accused of lying
not even trying
i stand there,not even denying
whatz tha use
coz to uze
ill alwayz b tha accused

Conspiracy Theory....Hmmmm

I_Am_A_Martian — Sat, 02 Aug 2008 11:52:58 UT

ok ok
first off..... ive been thru alot of blogz on here...call them attention seeking or not but i think thatz what a blog iz for.... bringin issuez in ur mind or ur life to tha attention of other pplez...so......

that being said....STOP BLOODY BULLYIN PPLE WHO HAVE LESS SELF ESTEEM THAN URSELF....
in ma experience a bully lovez to put otherz down in an effort to make themselvez look bigger coz they all ave inferioity complexez

now to tha matter at hand.....ill go ahead and say THERE ARE ALOT OF RACIST PPLE ON THIS SITE...n some might say i might b jus imaging tingz or readin too much into actionz or incidents but am an adult n ive noticed that itz very rampant on this site... am not goin to back down n get run off the site because of a few irrelevant pple wif tunnel vision,no...not at all

am jus making it known....

ALL U RACIST MUGZ OUT THERE SHOULD UNDERSTAND THAT IGNORANCE IS NOT BLISS...ITS A DISEASE THAT EATZ DEEP INTO U ...UR SOUL OR WHATEVA NONSENSITY U HAVE CONTAINED IN YA WORTHLESS EXCUSE OF A BODY.....

Toodlez...

Silence!!!

I_Am_A_Martian — Wed, 23 Jul 2008 07:48:57 UT

everywhere is silent
but is it good for me?
doesnt it give me the opportunity
to subconciously feel this heat?
am tryin to b one with the streetz
trust me
it aint nothing sweet
aint nobody discrete
and u will feel defeat
and i ponder on thiz when all is silent
cos the aggravation makes a brother violent
they say the violent will take heaven by force
when am alone my brain attackz from the source
am spittin metaphors
my words felt on foreign shores
cos nobody said it like this
ever before
whe am alone i think of summing more
what is all the show of power for?
dont we now that tha struggle for superiority is the cause of all wars?
why do we have some many twisted laws?
and the few good ones always have a clause....
why do they want to beat me into submission?
have me down on all four
why do they make oppression......
.. part of my life
cant tke it any more
and i ponder on this when there is no noise around
only the sounds in the background
things that wouldnt cross my mind in a crowd
even in silence,body language is loud
and there is an adversary around here...
.....and he aint fighting fair

Tha Puzzle

I_Am_A_Martian — Wed, 23 Jul 2008 07:18:00 UT

How is it done?
how do we do it?
what do we say?
what verbal thesis do we have to submit
to get it going tha right way
what sort of facial display
should i use ta back up what i say?
r they the right wordz is thiz tha right time?
maybe am too fast
prolly too slow
maybe am too early
or maybe too late
u kno how these thingz go
how should i act before i make tha incantations
the suspense is giving me heart palpitations
how will she react?
what will she do?
will she think its a very unseemly way fo a gent 2 act?
how does she see me?
do i stand a chance?
does she feel for me?
is there an opportunity for romance?
r the feelings mutual?
or r the scales tilted?
if she sayz "No" do i want tha pain of being jilted?
what r the signs?
am i readin them correctly?
when i am away does she forget me?
to her is it a simple case of "out of sight then out of mind"?
i need to kno...coz itz drivin me out of my mind!!!

Sad Lil Man

I_Am_A_Martian — Tue, 08 Jul 2008 10:30:43 UT

tha sad lil man
he thinkz he'z big n all that
but jus a lil trip up
n watch him on his face
fall flat
air knocked outta him
like he'z been hit wiv a baseball bat
and he'z lonely
livin a life for himself only
"livin a lie" thatz what he told me
but yet he still goez on
livin in expectation
for summink to go wrong
been paranoid for too long
like he'z on self-destruct
yet he frontz for tha outside world like he doesnt give a fuck
doesnt have any kinda luck
managed to live ina vaccum
in which he sitz
waitin for hiz doom
he knoz itz comin soon
he cant take tha suspense anymore
broke hiz own heart into peicez
n left em on tha floor
he would do good being a whore
coz he iz so ruthless
knockin tingz off that he considerz useless
but tha truth iz
he'z a sad lil man
only he can understand
tha pain he'z caused himself
with hiz own bare handz
he'z a sad lil man
thatz what he iz
so sad he dare not let anyone give birth to hiz kidz
fucked up...thatz tha kinda life he livez
fulla negativez
he doez these tingz
n regretz what he did
he'z pushin fate'z hand
tryna see what kinda cardz she'z got to give
to him.. aint nuffink worse than it already iz
he'z real sad man
tryna act like he'z big
but we all kno tha truth
you n i....
.. so whatz tha use?

Exactly How Itz Done Lmao

I_Am_A_Martian — Mon, 07 Jul 2008 13:44:05 UT

Obviously, the majority of you guys out there haven`t a fucking boardgame clue on how to eat pussy...which just causes an increase in the already abundantpopulation of bi[trendy]sexual females..Sooo here`s a few simplemethods I`thought i share with u guys...

Firstand foremost it`s easier to make a girl cum by eatin` her pussy asopposed to fuckin` her..A lot of you men don`t know that 95% of females can`t cum from sex unless they are on top...reason being so they canstimulate the clit...So the key is...Eat pussy first...Make her cum afew times...Numb her up...Then beat the pussy up however u please...

Nowonce you are in between her legs don`t just fuckin` dive in there likea bum at a thanksgiving charity dinner...Take your fuckin`time I knowpussy is nearly irresistable...but don`t act like it is...

Lickher inner thighs, kiss them...kiss around her pussy lips...kiss thelips etc...Finally once you`ve got your tongue on her clit...This iswhat u do...(you can use your hands to spread her lips here if youwant...That`s all preference...it`s easier to make em cum w/their lipsspread...So you have easier access to their clit : ) Now...roll the tipand somewhat flat part of your tongue around the clit in a circularmotion...slowly...DONT STOP...the KEY is to hold your rhythm...listento homegirls breathin`..use this as feedback..and react w/your tongueaccordingly...You want her breathin` to be steady...at steadyintervals...kinda like a metrognome, clock...whatever...tick tock ticktock tick tock...it sounds lame but she should be breathin` onbeat...No! Not MOANING...breathing...listen to her breathin`...listento the moans when ur on the phone or somethin`...now the key is...DONTSTOP (I emphasize this, cuz it`s important...if u STOP GO STOP GOhaphazard like, you`re not gonna get anywhere)...DONT
STOP..evenif it`s to pick a hair outta your mouth...just hold yourrhythm...circle her clit...increase speed gradually...once you`ve gotthe speed up a bit...and her breathin` is tellin` you that you are ontarget...Use more of the tip of your tongue...and move it less...but ata slightly faster pace...Basically work your way into...flickin` itback n forth like a punching bag...It`s hard to explain...But it`skinda like vibratin` your tongue...not swayin` it back n forth like awreckin` ball...slappin` her clit as you swoosh by...if u can keep thisup for at least 60 seconds...she`ll cum..if she`s stubborn and won`tbust...get a finger or two up inside her...hook ur finger(s)...andkinda "scratch""scrape""tickle""massage" her Gspot...which feels like alil sponge..it`s on the "ceiling" of her pussy..inside..and up
top..aboutan inch in...Consider yo fingers holdin` the harmony...while yourtongue works the melody...and she`ll bust before u know it...

Good!! You`ve succeded...now the worst thing you can do now is STOP...keep fuckin` goin...This is the good part...If you ignore
herpants, rants, and gestures for you to stop...and keep goin` like shehasn`t busted (she`ll initially want u to stop cuz she`s all maddsensitive at the moment)...After 10-15 seconds, the sensitivity for herwill fade...and about a minute later...Yes A MINUTE...she`ll bustagain...

Windz Of Change

I_Am_A_Martian — Sun, 27 Apr 2008 06:48:41 UT

hmmm a new week around tha corner n a new month isnt far behind... 4 months in 2008 n no major changes....need to sort all that out b4 half time....itz a new day.. a new mentality.... stay blessed