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A Choice

GreatMyPearL — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 16:21:16 UT

Hello there,
S o it’s been quite sometimes..hello there I remember one evening me and my cousin were sitting at the porch at our grandparents’ house. Christmas was almost over and both of our families were going to head home that evening leaving behind our grandparents until the next school holidays.

Me and my cousin were very reluctant to go home that day...not because we’ll miss our grandparents...well maybe a bit but largely because we were leaving behind a boy we had a crush on. Because of him we were always excited to go to church in that small town and every move, every glance he made, we translated it that he surely had the same feeling towards us. I mean it was kind like funny to think, maybe he had to choose between us but that was okay with us..I guess we thought if he chose anyone of us, we can have the brother. Such was the game... Somehow that evening, we came up with something…a phrase that we still remember up to this day... ‘time change, people change’

As young as we were that holidays, we understood that one day perhaps we will not feel the same way towards that boy but what a pain we felt to wait for that day to come cause we liked this boy verrryyy muchhh..haha..but years passed by we never see him again. Once my cousin saw this boy again…sure enough, whatever remains was just a memory of us having a crush on this boy. And so, time change and people change…different times bring with people different emotions, creativity, feelings..nobody stays the same, people should grow..because change matters, but the choice to whether we want to change for good or worse is ours. There is always a choice. With this I recommend we listen to Switchfoot ‘This is home’. Have a lovely time today

History in the making

GreatMyPearL — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 05:35:03 UT

Hey,
t's a weird thing that some of the most outrageous things are happening in this season of history. I think other times in the past there were surely other things as well..some were great history. But I've witnessed diseases, wars, changes in economy and politics changing and coming in this world. These things affect us one way or another, and you're in it before you know it. To be even a small part of that is beyond comprehension.Like pastor Darlene said, 'what a great responsibility trusted to us in this time of history'..to become genuine worshippers of the LORD, to keep on praying despite what we see. Praise the LORD for all the prayer warriors out there, with their prayers lifted up in times like this, that God has shown HIS mercy and grace and often times rescue us from these natural disasters, diseases etc..if we allow HIM to.Rest in HIS unfailing love, rest in HIS power, rest in HIS presence, ultimately nothing compare to that..
YOU hold us LORD in YOUR mighty arms,
We believe in YOU,we stand in YOUR WORD,
YOUR promises,we will see a better, brighter day,
when we put our trust in YOUR NAME JESUS,
nothing can separate us from YOUR LOVE LORD,
let our heart set upon YOU,OH GOD
let each breath speaks YOUR NAME,
our hope is in YOU,for YOU will save the day
All glory to YOUR NAME..AMEN.

3 pieces of my week

GreatMyPearL — Wed, 03 Jun 2009 03:06:21 UT

Friday, April 10, 2009
Hey there, I bought a new shoe yesterday and every time I pass by it…I couldn’t help but admire it so much haha. I’ve had of course like 5 pairs of shoes that I really like, and it’s just so amazing how creative shoes can get these days haha.. well, they may not be Manalo blahniks or Jimmy choo but still…they’re beautiful plus affordable! To me! Well, I am a cheap person at times..love that 20% discount! haha.

Tuesday, May 5 2009
Hello there, everywhere wherever I meet my friends who are teachers..we’re all pretty much could understand what we are talking or whining about haha.

Friday, April 15 2009
I figure the more blessed you are, the more is trusted to you and the more you have to put on your shoulders and walk more miles than before. One windy evening, I was going home from school feeling weary and jaded as I was dealing with the never ending demands of my work. I saw three boys playing the swing at the school field. Slowly as my car was passing by, they were waving, smiling their teeth out, clapping and shouting my name (which I’m very used to these days..well…you’re actually like a celebrity to most pupils hehe)I waved and smiled back and hardly recognised their faces. They are of course pupils in my school. I got a gentle rebuke…it is not just about how tired and worn out I feel, it’s about these kids, about people, about putting love in what you do. About making that little difference in their lives. Sometimes we forget that while battling life’s situations…I did. So..let’s just do what we can with what we have, sometimes the best of us does not match up to people’s expectations. Don’t worry, keep on knocking, seeking and what was the other one…maybe we’ll get there one day or next year. GOD is patient after all even when people are not.

Merry Christmas 08

GreatMyPearL — Wed, 17 Dec 2008 02:41:34 UT

Hello there,
christmas is coming soon..hmm..definitely wondering what God has prepared for us this christmas,tell me soon will ya We've had been through the past months will a whole lot of different stories,but bottom line is God is still the God who is ever present, strong, kind and merciful...ain't HE?

I just want to wish everybody, my church family,friends...have a merry merry christmas,let the merriness (is there even a word like this.man...i'm just good haha) and thankfulness stays in your heart...for a Saviour was born to bring you to eternity, what a great gift..believe and continue to believe,with HIM we are more powerful than we think,praise GOD.

Much love,
Mel
P/s: Here's a video...it may not sound christmas haha but..JESUS CHRIST has definitely
brought a new dawn in my life,i'm sure yours too when you receive HIM..may we see HIM face to
face one day, amen.

Sunrise by Nichole Nordeman
If I had the chance
To go back again
Take a different road, bear a lighter load
Tell an easy story

I would walk away
With my yesterdays
And I would not trade what is broken for beauty only

Every valley
Every bitter chill
Made me ready to climb back up the hill
And find that . . .

You are sunrise
You are blue skies
How would I know the morning
If I knew not midnight?

You’re my horizon
You’re the light of a new dawn
So thank You, thank You
That after the long night, You are sunrise

There’s a moment when
Faith caves in
There’s a time when every soul is certain God is gone

But every shadow is evidence of sun
And every tomorrow holds out hope for us
For every one of us

You are sunrise
You are blue skies
How would I know the morning
If I knew not midnight?

You’re my horizon
You’re the light of a new dawn
So thank You, thank You
That after the long night, You are sunrise

You alone will shine
You alone can resurrect this heart of mine

You are sunrise
You are blue skies
How would I know the morning
If I knew not midnight?

You’re my horizon
You’re the light of a new dawn
So thank You, thank You
That after the long night, You are sunrise

Beautiful by Bethany D nt Christina A..alrite:p

GreatMyPearL — Wed, 10 Dec 2008 01:35:22 UT

Enjoy! ^_^

"Beautiful"

I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me

Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life

I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful

Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
Won't you help me back to glory

You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful

Love is patient hehehe

GreatMyPearL — Thu, 04 Dec 2008 00:44:39 UT

Hello…
There was this one fine day, I went to Hua Ho (sorry to mention that but don’t worry it’s nothing bad haha) in my town. So I was queuing to pay my stuffs and there was this Chinese lady in front of me, with mini pans, lots of veggies in her basket…basically there was a lot of groceries. Suddenly, came this one lady and yes I could see that she had like only two things to pay. She cut in front that Chinese lady…oh boy I thought…I could just felt heat energy radiated from that Chinese lady hehe. She was staring sharply at the ‘line cutter’ and I imagined in my head any time soon she would have knocked the other lady’s head with that mini pan. I would have just given it up if it was me…but not this Chinese lady, you can see the angry face all over. Well thank goodness…there was no such thing as cat fight happened at the counter. Sometimes we do learn about being patient in the unexpected place… it was unfair yes but that moments call us to just relax a bit, and remind us sometimes people are not so thoughtful. May we all learn to be though

Sweet october

GreatMyPearL — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 08:53:40 UT

Hi and peace,
I feel amazing…hehe…
I guess I got my dream job (although on some days dealing with teaching stuffs are not at all that breezy or full of enthusiasm…but mostly to be honest… We’re talking about being in the classroom where you can make it fun, memorable, funny, creative…anyhow you imagine your classroom should be…Soooo it has been marvelous.) and my days in each week whether in the morning, at noon or night are now filled with reports, workshops, marking students works, carry out school projects, photocopying lesson exercises and notes and I have no idea how many packets of teh tarik I’ve consumed haha… I need the taste and I need the caffeine, boy that sounds great ;p Grant me the strength LORD

I got my dream car as well…now tell me GOD hasn’t been good to me..haha..I could not thank you enough LORD. Another one, I’ve graduated from my dream university as well…haha yeah, frankly it is my dream uni, I just go for my local uni lah haha.

After all…no matter what happens in life, when GOD is involved, nothing really goes wrong although at times we perceive it as something has just gone awfully wrong.
May we keep trusting in GOD’s love and in HIS faithful character, amen. Praise HIM for HIS mighty acts!!!

Raya in New Month

GreatMyPearL — Thu, 02 Oct 2008 05:10:36 UT

Hi there,
So it's October already and it's Hari Raya as well... September was unbelievably a busy month for me and yet tremendously fun. I read my dear best friend, Aj's blog just now and ya she is undeniably funny hahha...
and I have to give the link here about this story...not just because she put my name in it hahaha but it really was a memorable day => http://aworldj.blogspot.com/2008/09/slamat-jalan-angela_26.html
I havent updated most of my stuffs here hehe..how pathetic..
Lots of good things happened recently...like i got the job and will be posted soon..teaching again... hehe
Arina is 7mths pregnant, my friends managed to sing that 'Kamilah...' song haha..
Life is great.thank YOU LORD..and it'll be even great if I can go to that Vienna Operreta Orchestra this 7th Nov, I think I just buy tha $30 ticket..I hope either Niyah or Fadde can go with me, or whoever as long as I can go hahaha..
Alright, until then

New aug 08

GreatMyPearL — Fri, 01 Aug 2008 04:31:58 UT

Helo there,it's 31st July and tomorrow is another new month for the year 2008. Usually my best friend, Nurul and i wud greet ech other evry new mth as if it's New Year. Who knws wt u will be going thru dz nw mth..myb an unexpected joy.. Or sorrow.. Well,let's jz hope despite it all,we hang in there and keep on trusting God;may we all continue to mke Godly choices evryday. We cn choose to live by worldly wisdom n later realise hw temporary is the hype and the solution. Or we cn keep standing in God's words and rise up victoriously.Not easy,but it all begins with choice I reckon

"...Live Dangerously, Disturbed, & Ruined"

GreatMyPearL — Wed, 09 Jul 2008 14:03:06 UT

Hi there, i just really need to share this article from Julie Ferwerda's blog..she's such an amazing woman of God. She really writes a lot of thought-provoking journals and articles on christians life..so do visit her site if you got some free time May it bless us all

"A blog entry from June 16, 2008
Surprise Your Mother...Live Dangerously, Disturbed, & Ruined
Recently I heard Kay Warren speak at a conference. She said, "I'm not too much fun at dinner parties anymore." She went on to explain that, ever since she got involved with AIDS orphans, not to mention battling a life-threatening bout with cancer, she doesn't want to waste time discussing trivial matters in life anymore. She wants to talk about things that really matter in the grand scheme, and I guess certain associations get bored with her new life pursuits.

She went on to challenge the audience to live out their remaining days on earth in three dimensions for the sake of Christ:

Dangerously surrendered: Why "dangerously?" God is not safe, but He's good. To be dangerously surrendered means that you are willing for the adventure, wherever it takes you, believing that God is good and He will only lead you on a path of good, even if it seems perilous at times. Living this way will threaten your reliance upon what is known and comfortable, but will take you places you never dreamed possible.

Seriously disturbed: there's only one way to become seriously disturbed for the cause of Christ and that is to get your hands dirty. Go on a mission trip. Get involved in a worthy cause with those who are the "least of these." When you see and experience first hand the suffering of others, you will forever be marked and disturbed in such a way, you will want to do something.

Gloriously ruined: In Isaiah's words, we read: "Woe to me! I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty (6:5 NIV)." When we encounter the Holy, we become ruined by Him and for Him. We never quite see life the same again. Our old ways of fun are spoiled, our old habits are no longer enjoyable, our priorities and perspectives are changed. But instead of losing out, our life actually becomes new, full, and beautiful!

In Audio Adrenaline's song, "Miracle," Mark Stuart writes:

I am free
For the first time
I can see
Further than before
Everything's different now
Now that you've ruined my life
You took my dreams
And stole my schemes
And turned my life upside down
You took my heart
Stole every part
And made it a miracle

Make the decision to live dangerously surrendered, seriously disturbed, and gloriously ruined for Christ. Ask Him to help you be ready to do this. Put your life and future in His hands. I guarantee (money back) it will be the best decision of your life. In fact, you will find that only in choosing this kind of life, are you truly living."

Link
http://julieferwerda.com/Journal.htm?blog_id=146

WHY

GreatMyPearL — Sat, 05 Jul 2008 07:43:35 UT

By Nichole

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide
We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows
Daddy, please can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry
you said he was stronger than all of those guys
daddy, please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die?"
Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And Daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out

I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross
And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for My robe?
This crown of thorns hurts Me more than it shows
Father, please can't You do something?
I know that You must hear My cry
I thought I could handle the cross of this size
Father, remind Me why
Why does everyone want Me to die?
When will I understand why?"

"My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe You in robes of My own
Jesus, this hurts Me much more than You know
But this dark hour I must do nothing
Though I've heard Your unbearable cry
The power in Your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon You'll see past their unmerciful eyes

Look there below, see the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell You why
She is why You must die"

Another favourite song of mine from Nichole Nordeman,
the first time I heard it..it just struck my heart. The story of our Saviour, JESUS CHRIST is amazingly told from a view of a little girl in this song…

Holz in a small town

GreatMyPearL — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 13:19:00 UT

Hi there,
So I’m here again in Lawas (this small little town) during this second term school holidays…it’s kind of quiet in this town, at this time of month. Well,we’re here having kolo mee..like everyday…huh…won’t be long till I hit that scale again haha. It’s just how I’m doing, I gorge up a bit in few days and the scale keeps going up…scary but well it’s fun!
Oh, I don’t have anything inspiring to say now…wish I do cause I would need them too now.

There’s nothing much to do here but stay in the kitchen most of the time until the women finish their works…and that’s usually until dinner time.
Okay maybe I exaggerate there but whenever my aunts and their family come around here in Lawas (usually around December though), we really stay in the kitchen morning till night. Once they finish making breakfast, we need to prepare for lunch and after that they’ll prepare for dinner. Too much on the menu perhaps…while the guys happily chatting, nibbling nuts, sitting enjoying the tv shows. Well, not that they have not been helping much…they do, here and there but most of the time….that’s what they do. I can’t help looking outside at them with a tired face and think, if this is for a month I’m going to fall into a state of depression. Oh boy, being a girl is hard haha…
But no one works the hardest than both my grandparents…they wake up at the crack of dawn, go for a short prayer meeting then go to work be it to tap rubber that day or go work at their paddy field…in their old age, they still have that agility of the young.. They’re used to it I guess

I enjoy the cool air, the lovely river, the nice people and the beautiful language though…
I know that whenever we all go abroad, if we open up our hearts and our minds…we learn from that country, that city and that experiences. I go to Lawas every year and it never fails to show me new things…unless I begin to say or feel in my heart that this trip is not going to worth it Let’s keep on thanking God..

All right, I think I have to go to the kitchen now hehehe…let me leave you with this thought…. GOD is good all the time and all the time GOD is good, regardless of our time and circumstance. It is just HIS nature…let me not forget that LORD hehe..take care all

Cerita TP

GreatMyPearL — Wed, 04 Jun 2008 05:07:00 UT

Pada 11hb Febuari merupakan hari yang bersejarah bagi dua orang perempuan iaitu kami. Bukanlah kerana hari itu merupakan hari perkahwinan, pertunangan ataupun kelahiran anak pertama kami mahupun hari graduasi kami tetapi kerana hari itu merupakan hari kami memulakan TP yang bermakna latihan mengajar. Hari itu kami akan mulai merasakan lagi datang ke sekolah pada awal pagi melihat kanak-kanak memakai pakaian putih, seluar hijau bagi laki2 dan tudung serta baju putih dan kain berwarna bagi perempuan. Sebagai seorang insan sudah semestinya kami merasa gugup,takut,gembira,excited dan bermacam-macam perasaan yang sepatutnya dirasai oleh seorang manusia. Hari itu merupakan hari yang sangat indah sekali…
Sebelum kita melihat lebih dalam lagi tentang hari yang serba indah itu yang mana TUHAN telah mengaruniakan awan2 yang berarak bagaikan model dan matahari yang memancarkan sinarnya lebih daripada tiang lampu di Bandar Seri Begawan, kita lihat dulu kehidupan kami pada tahun2 sebelum TP…atupun kalau mahu meliat.. No forcing in love you know hehe..

Dulu keduanya bertiga (kalau kes urg kawin sudah majalah akan cakap cemani tu,,”Dulu hanya berdua sekarang bertiga”kan kan) ,kami bolehlah dipnggil Powerpuff Girls ataupun The Three Stooges tetapi oleh kerana salah seorang kami mepunyai kegeniusan yang ketara maka yang seorang ini mempunyai pluang untuk tidak perlu graduasi pada tahun yang sama. Tetapi ketiganya merupakan sahabat selamanya atau dalam pendeknya bolehlah dikatakan BFF kerana tetap mengharungi kehidupan universiti bersama. Bersama-sama kami mengenali para guru atau sebaiknya dipanggil lecturer seperti Dr Mo (bukan nama sebenar),Puan Khi(juga bukan nama sebenar..in fact nama nama sebenar tidak akan dinyatakan kecuali perlu), Cg Mat dan Sir Mark (nama sebenar).

Kadang2 byk inspirasi terbit daripada mengenali guru2 ini setelah lama berada di bawah pimpinan mereka. Inspirasi tersebutlah yang banyak menerbitkan keketawaan kami…apapun kami bersyukur mmpunyai guru2 seperti mereka.Dalam bidang sukan pula ketiganya agak aktif untuk sementara waktu, peribahasa ‘hangat2 tahi ayam’ bolehlah digunakan di sini. Dalam bidang pelajaran pula, kami selalu menyiapkan homework on time dan grades yang diperolehi agak memuaskan. Kawan2 yang diperolehi pula ada bermacam2 tetapi bersyukur lah dapat mengenali 100+ urang atu hehe…

Sekarang kita berbalik semula pada hari bersejarah tersebut…ceritanya cemani…ok maybe kadang2 bahasa yang kami pakai di sini ada baku, Melayu Brunei, English, Murut, Thailand(cam banar..) tetapi apa salahnya menggunakan pengetahuan kita untuk membuat hidup kita lebih siuk dan bermakna kan…

Pada hari tersebut, kami berdua c sur and saya dan kawan-kawan jua memang nda sanang duduk..macam rusa baru masuk kampung. Memang rasa nda biasalah but then kami faces it, eh I mean faced it..dengan muka yang tabah dan kuat…smile always…hehe
So, I was just trying to enjoy2 my time di staffroom with my bff c sur. Cerita2 kali tiba2 datanglah seorang kawan tp kami. Rupanya aku perlu mengajar tah tu…cikgu kelas atu kebetulan tah beranak that day. Bertuahlah baby ah…cute lah babynya hehe (2months after that plg c sur mereport sal baby cikgu tu)

Berjalan tah ku ke kelas atu…dengan rasa numb, nda tau apa yang perlu ku expect. Bila ku sampai ku lihat wah anak2 eh semua…fuyooo..lost ku banar sekajap. I expect utk observed sj d whole week kali mgajar tarus. Hmm…menggeletar kali sikit2 almaklum budak baru. ‘O my God’ saja balik2 dalam hati…haha
If c sur or Cg.Sur pun banyak interesting stories…the thing is banyaklah ‘pengalaman yang tidak dapat dilupakan’..chewah cakap cg.ustaz tu hehehe apa sur..’How’s the kids?’ Hmm..what do you think ja?

So months passed by,kira invaluable resources jualah kami atu to the school…positive thinking bah hehe. Funny jua,dulu rasa struggling bebanar (awu nyamu) now within 3 months culture shock atu kira kan abis dah effectnya. Bersyukurlah kita ke kepadaNYA.
Em..sekajap jua ah ceta ku sampai dah 3 months, nya urg cerita pendek..kap pun kap pon hehe..letihlah nak cerita banyak sangat. Pokok katanye,kalau anda inginkan cabaran yang hebat dalam hidup anda, ingin menambahkan pahala yang sedia ada, ingin bertemankan kanak2, inginkan hari2 yang berbeza setiap hari dan mempunyai tahap stress yang sihat bolehlah menawarkan diri untuk menjadi seorang guru…I tell u…tak boring, sah nikahnya nya urg.

Okey, sampai sinilah ya…tentunya cerita ini tidak akan berkesudahan apatah lagi sememangnya cerita orang yang hidup, jauh berbeza dengan cerita orang yang sudah jauh pergi (paham2 lah ah…please ah) Emm…apanya urang French cakap..Fin! Or Tamat or The End…for your information, sama saja tu the meaning ah. Don’t have to think too much what they mean k. Ta ta..tringat plg krita Tata sumo atu eh (cute jua namanya atu ah…p nda jua plg ada ku liat ciri2 sumo arah matuka atu..hmm…bingung ku mikirkan,jangantah dipikir kali eh) iatah krita yang kan bapa ku bali tu dulu2. Tapi nda kesampaian diri n smua yang terbaik for all.…nya urg cakap2 saja bah..imagining things ehehe.Bh bye2 dulu ah…jaga
diri. Sur, Aj finally i posted it!!HAHAHA

I know YOU're there

GreatMyPearL — Wed, 07 May 2008 16:31:18 UT

I know YOU’re there
By Casting Crowns

If all I had was one last breath
I’d spend it just to sing YOUR praise
Just to say YOUR name
If all I had was one last prayer
I’d pray it cause I know
YOU’re always listening
If I could live a thousand lives,
Bind the hands of time
I would spend every moment
By YOUR side

‘cause I, I know YOU’re there
I know YOU see me
YOU’re the air I breathe
YOU are the ground beneath me
I know YOU’re there
I know YOU hear me
I can find YOU anywhere

If all I had was one more song to sing
I would raise my voice to make the heavens ring
If all I had was one last chance,
I’d take it
I would stake it all on YOU

If I could raise up high and
Catch a glimpse of every eye
I would make them believe what I feel inside…

I couldn’t have learned to love God this much if God hadn’t shown me that HE loves me patiently, fiercely and wholeheartedly. This song really help me to remind myself that despite anything..HE is my everything and I do love HIM. HE’s my Maker, Author of my life and the only God I shall serve all my life..May I always be faithful to YOU LORD JESUS as YOU are with me. Praise be to YOUR name LORD JESUS!!
And oh by the way, thanks Zeus for all the great songs yah.God bless ya

Bounce bounce bounce bounce back

GreatMyPearL — Tue, 22 Apr 2008 05:11:31 UT

Hi friends,so today i had my supervisor observed me again for the second time..so guess what,i got a b..well,that was great than the first time if u remember hehe.. I was really trying my best,thank God for strengthening my heart.i wasnt so sure my supervisor was impressed,still he gave me wonderful comments to hear n read..wahh.. Feel so good to be able to bounce back from last time disappointments hehe.. Anywy,we all are still growing and learning..at least i am.so i gues,when my sv said this n that abt my weaknesses,he did me a favour.. Thx..sir.. Well,that's it for today,God bless u all..take care

The Holidays

GreatMyPearL — Sat, 29 Mar 2008 04:22:53 UT

Hi there,
So the holidays have been great…really rejuvenating my skin haha as if...
Anyway, I had a cool time with my family considering we had to go here and there to buy stuffs for my brother because he will be living a bit far from us. He’s going for a 3 months attachment and then will be going abroad. It’s not just good for him, it’s really good for the family also…well…especially good for me cause I get to go around town, see some stuffs and eat out almost everyday (not good for my dad’s financial though but he’s a real stable man, if he says let’s eat out…let’s just do that). In other word, siuklahhh…
So, I haven’t done things macam my lesson plan yet. Essential for every teacher hehe I had a cool time practising with my brothers and sisters in Christ, very supportive, amazing people and unbelievably cool
Other stuffs…just lighten up, take it easy and enjoy every moment...uhh...I meant to say that to me hehee...still take care

Teaching

GreatMyPearL — Sat, 29 Mar 2008 04:08:53 UT

Hey…
So I’ve done 3 weeks of my teaching practice and after week 4 I felt like a sense of inadequacy with myself especially after I had been observed by my supervisor who commented a lot about my weaknesses especially with my use of language it seemed that I used too much Brunei Malay, these children understand that what?!.. It’s the same feeling I had whenever I led in worship and I made mistake with the key, when the worship went down the hill instead of going up, when somehow I got nervous and I didn’t speak with clarity, when I expect the LORD to really show me HIS manifest presence and I felt like HE didn’t show up grandly. I never really would try to blame anything, if I would I only have myself to blame and this is why so many times I feel so disappointed with myself. It makes me feel that if only I could make things go the way I want them to be, the way I have prepared them to happen and the way I expect myself to perform.
About the observation, I prepared well for my supervisor to observe me and I guess at times our thinking and ideas might not be the same. so when he said this and that, I don’t feel like sharing what he said about me but just to let you know I hope he at least could be patient with a new teacher to be. At least he said that I’m positive and with this attribute I will be a better teacher as I gain more exposures and experiences…well I’m not sure where he saw my positivity though..;p
I guess I was really disappointed when he said that, cause I had my own expectation and to live up to the given result was kind of hard for me, meaning to take c+ grade instead of b…
It frustrates me to think…when people ask me to give my best when I’ve done my best? Just help me to be my best, show me…and don’t tell me to do my best…
After being observed and commented that way, it certainly got me thinking whether I really want to teach and being commented like that again. Most people would say, oh teacher is such an easy job, good working hours, many holidays… This was my thought before I really teach and involved in school programmes. If you have never teach in a real classroom with real kids in a real school don’t bother tell me I have the easiest job in the world, you haven’t had the slightest idea what you’re talking about. Then I begin to question my own vocation. It’s a serious job and it really can take up so much from you but when I really sit down and talk to God about it, HE makes me see beyond my present circumstances. Being a teacher is how I see myself investing in the young lives, serving them with how I know best and I had a tremendous feeling of joy to know they learned something from me, to see how I can just be effortlessly funny in front of them, to give them the opportunities to help me grow and learn through the hard times they give me and most of all…it humbles me to know that God is giving me what I can do not what I can’t. HE believes in us ya knaw hehe… I guess we all have our low and high tides but in those times never lose our faith and be strong. JESUS will always…always be by our side, HE will help you through. That is HIS promise, it’s in the bible... so believe HIM

New Year 08

GreatMyPearL — Mon, 21 Jan 2008 06:35:48 UT

Hi to all and Selamat Tahun Baru, Happy New Year!! Want to say that in chinese, Greek, Hebrew, Indian etc but I just don't have the resources. So, like anyone who's got a blog, I'm pretty sure they
have a happy new year greeting in their blog. So, don't want to miss out lah..
Just wishing everyone a great time, a lot of fun, tighter friendships and do make mistakes but grow out of it oh and ya.. have more faith in yourselves, have more love, enjoy living in your dream
This is from me, until next time

Sincerely with love...:)

GreatMyPearL — Mon, 05 Nov 2007 04:25:09 UT

Hi and peace be to you all
Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. 38This is the first and great commandment. 39And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.(Mat 22:37-39)
I am reminded that we all need to love each other because love can cast away so many hurts and fears. It is certainly not selfish…I see that kind of love through my parents who love me despite my failures or my inadequacy but most of all they love me for who I am…to them I’m beautiful, special and unique. I learn that love is having the sense that the other person’s happiness and wellness matter to you. Keep on loving! (Hmm...isn’t this motto almost the same with McDonald??) Such is the love that Christ demonstrates to me...ever loving, ever giving and never ending. To find such love would be the greatest treasure ever, when we learn to love unconditionally…I think it is something beyond my imagination cause I am learning as well. I would say, I find freedom and joy in love as great as Christ. Take care, I love you!

My MEET THE ROBINSONS review

GreatMyPearL — Sat, 20 Oct 2007 04:26:21 UT

Oct 2007
Hi there,
I never thought I actually got more than just an animation movie with ‘MEET THE ROBINSONS’ I know it is last year movie perhaps hehe. I thought oh yeah this might be a fun, loving movie…man I was wrong.
I was deeply moved halfway through the movie…like any movie that successfully caused my heart to stir (hehe), jump up and down and cause my jaw to drop open because of the surprise elements that keep on unfolding, yeah this movie did that to me.
At first I learned, true you have to believe in yourself. It is true that it can be hard when you receive all the negative feedbacks about things you do, makes you feel like you’re not doing good enough, that you’re no good until you really did screw up. Nevertheless, you have to believe in yourself, believe in your potential, believe that you are capable to achieve what you want…believe in those little dreams you have at the back of your mind. I think it is disrespectful to deny the gift that God has placed inside of you, so believe
The second thing is…that our past can be anything, anything at all…what we know about the future anyway doesn’t really matter. What do we know about the present? It is an awesome wonder how those little details in our lives could contribute to the making of some major things in our lives. How some little knocks on a door on a rainy night could make a future (well, saw that in MEET THE ROBINSONS…a touching scene really and oh now I’m watching almost the end of this movie listening to its soundtrack that Little Wonders song by this ex-member of matchbox twenty, what’s his name
God is able to knit our intricate life into a beautiful beautiful beautiful future whether we were a mess, being a hopeful person, saw the tragedies that came around, thought that we live the worst life ever or just being that little kid with that passion in our heart. Truth is God is not even done with you or me yet…there is yet more to be unfolded. Keep on believing in you, because God does so, let go the past failures or anything that keep on holding you back and you know what Cornelius Robinsons says “Keep on moving forward!” oh not forgetting, family can be a powerful force in life, don’t forget that. Yeah…God is an awe-inspiring designer of everything, oh the wisdom of the LORD.
God loves you!

Inspiring musical talents,anyone?

GreatMyPearL — Wed, 03 Oct 2007 05:32:38 UT

Hi there,
Somebody can tell me that when you are someone new in that field, it is going to take sometime before people trust you doing those jobs. For example, driving…finally I have my own driving license, thank you LORD what a perfect timing. However, it is going to take my parents sometime before they may officially declare that I am an amazing careful and skilled driver...but that time will come, well I hope. Anyway, today I bought the Martina McBride album’s Martina. There are some wonderful inspirational songs actually I think all of them. Great to find some artists who know why they are in that industry. Listening through her songs, it made me glad that she really has a mission… the reflections of this beautiful life and inspiring young girls. It makes me remember what Nichole Nordeman says, that as a songwriter sometimes we are too compel to talk about ourselves. Yeah, so thank you God because both artists look into this world matters, how sometimes people just need to hear the spoken kindness, hearing the truth that God loves them, that they are people in greater need than ourselves, that they are people suffering and we can't just turn our back, that you don’t have to exaggerate small matters and that life is a blessing. Bless these people, and God bless you guys!

Graduation day

GreatMyPearL — Thu, 20 Sep 2007 03:34:14 UT

Hello there,
The convo festival sounds sooo hype…but…well there’s no but hehe. Its great cause around the campus we have ABC, Nasi katok, Tasconi pizza etc I love these 3….I guess that is why I mentioned them. So, today I bought the ABC, chicken mushroom and Tuna pizza. Me and Sur (my verrry good friend) bought the same things, ate together while waiting for Angela (another verrrry good friend). Eh so much fun eh hehe… then tomorrow I’m going to sleepover at Sur’s home to do our English project where our subject will be her niece (Angela come together lah hehe…but nevermind you got things to do jua) and this Saturday is the ‘Appreciation Nite’ for our batch (ahh must be great but the next day got replacement lecture huhu…ahh must be great also think positive!). Anyway, I read at someone’s blog saying “Blogging is (what was it?...can’t remember very well) procrastination….” Something about blogging is where you waste your time or like blogging is your way of procrastinating to do your work. Hmm...I couldn’t agree on that 100%. I mean what if we blog about things that can actually help someone at the other ends of the world by sharing our stories, giving tips or advise on this or that or exchanging cooking or success recipes? That is not wasting our time right? Well, on the other hand, I do have work to do…how I hope I could just scan through every notes and they stick to my brain for a long long time but no, I’ve to read, indulge and digest it one by one..hard work Take care all

I AM by NN

GreatMyPearL — Wed, 05 Sep 2007 04:40:20 UT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXCXEb1Qupg
I Am

Pencil marks on a wall, I wasn’t always this tall
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed
You watched my team win
You watched my team lose
You watched when my bicycle went down again
And when I was weak, unable to speak
Still I could call You by name
And I said, Elbow Healer, Superhero
Come if you can
You said, I Am

Only sixteen, life is so mean
What kind of curfew is at 10pm?
You saw my mistakes
And watched my heart break
Heard when I swore I’d never love again
And when I was weak, unable to speak
Still I could call You by name
And I said, Heartache Healer, Secret Keeper
Be my best friend
And You said, I Am

You saw me wear white by pale candlelight
I said forever to what lies ahead
Two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream
Too much it might seem when it is 2am
And when I am weak, unable to speak
Still I will call You by name
Shepherd, Savior, Pasture Maker
Hold onto my hand
You say, I Am

The winds of change and circumstance blow in and all around us
So we find a foothold that’s familiar
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer

When life had begun, I was woven and spun
You let the angels dance around the throne
And who can say when, but they’ll dance again
When I am free and finally headed home
I will be weak, unable to speak
Still I will call You by name
Creator, Maker, Life Sustainer
Comforter, Healer, my Redeemer
Lord and King, Beginning and the End

I Am
Yes, I Am

Pat Coil: Piano / David Davidson, David Angell and Monisa Angell: Violins / John Catchings: Cello / Charlie Peacock: String Arrangement / Written by Nichole Nordeman / ©2002 Ariose Music / ASCAP / Admin. by EMI Christian Music Publishing

Pizza Hut

GreatMyPearL — Mon, 27 Aug 2007 05:32:55 UT

Mon, 20th August 2007
Hello there, there is something special about today…hehe where to begin? Well, I first want to tell you guys about a lecturer that I come across this semester who happens to command such respect in his class that I think he got people to think. His humility, his life stories, his caring for his students…he actually reminds me of the kind of teacher I want to be. He doesn’t intimidate but just provoke people to be responsible of their own learning. Well, good thing me, Sur and Ika will be presenting at week 10 in his class. That’s mean more time hehe.
Then, it’s Mark’s birthday today. So he treated the ‘gang’, all 8 of us to Pizza Hut where we wanted to surprise him with a birthday cake. Turned out we were actually more surprised by the workers at Pizza Hut. They came out, brought the cake and sang a birthday song (they had a guitar and actually sang in tune!) I felt like I wanted to have my birthday that day. We were incredibly full, happy and all smiled up
After that I came back, felt so incredibly appreciative of my education haha…now where did that come from? Well, earlier though our lecturer asked us to make a note (mind map specifically, man he really want us to learn ) after the lecture. I actually should have started that, but because of this and that I just put it off. Today however, I feel like…now I have the time and such a fresh energy to do that
P/s: How a simple thing in life can have a profound effect to someone, so always appreciate this God-given life.

P/s:Happy birthday Angela