GreatMyPearL
Trust female - 22 years, Brunei Darussalam
Blog 38
What's a blog?Why we blog it?haha...just blog it and pour it out..
basically,that may be what I'm doing..yeah..it is.
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WHY
By Nichole
We rode into town the other day
Just me and my daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide
We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes
So I said "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows
Daddy, please can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry
you said he was stronger than all of those guys
daddy, please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die?"
Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And Daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross
And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for My robe?
This crown of thorns hurts Me more than it shows
Father, please can't You do something?
I know that You must hear My cry
I thought I could handle the cross of this size
Father, remind Me why
Why does everyone want Me to die?
When will I understand why?"
"My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe You in robes of My own
Jesus, this hurts Me much more than You know
But this dark hour I must do nothing
Though I've heard Your unbearable cry
The power in Your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon You'll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below, see the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell You why
She is why You must die"
Another favourite song of mine from Nichole Nordeman,
the first time I heard it..it just struck my heart. The story of our Saviour, JESUS CHRIST is amazingly told from a view of a little girl in this song… -
Holz in a small town
Hi there,
So I’m here again in Lawas (this small little town) during this second term school holidays…it’s kind of quiet in this town, at this time of month. Well,we’re here having kolo mee..like everyday…huh…won’t be long till I hit that scale again haha. It’s just how I’m doing, I gorge up a bit in few days and the scale keeps going up…scary but well it’s fun!
Oh, I don’t have anything inspiring to say now…wish I do cause I would need them too now.
There’s nothing much to do here but stay in the kitchen most of the time until the women finish their works…and that’s usually until dinner time.
Okay maybe I exaggerate there but whenever my aunts and their family come around here in Lawas (usually around December though), we really stay in the kitchen morning till night. Once they finish making breakfast, we need to prepare for lunch and after that they’ll prepare for dinner. Too much on the menu perhaps…while the guys happily chatting, nibbling nuts, sitting enjoying the tv shows. Well, not that they have not been helping much…they do, here and there but most of the time….that’s what they do. I can’t help looking outside at them with a tired face and think, if this is for a month I’m going to fall into a state of depression. Oh boy, being a girl is hard haha…
But no one works the hardest than both my grandparents…they wake up at the crack of dawn, go for a short prayer meeting then go to work be it to tap rubber that day or go work at their paddy field…in their old age, they still have that agility of the young.. They’re used to it I guess
I enjoy the cool air, the lovely river, the nice people and the beautiful language though…
I know that whenever we all go abroad, if we open up our hearts and our minds…we learn from that country, that city and that experiences. I go to Lawas every year and it never fails to show me new things…unless I begin to say or feel in my heart that this trip is not going to worth it
Let’s keep on thanking God..
All right, I think I have to go to the kitchen now hehehe…let me leave you with this thought…. GOD is good all the time and all the time GOD is good, regardless of our time and circumstance. It is just HIS nature…let me not forget that LORD hehe..take care all -
Cerita TP
Pada 11hb Febuari merupakan hari yang bersejarah bagi dua orang perempuan iaitu kami. Bukanlah kerana hari itu merupakan hari perkahwinan, pertunangan ataupun kelahiran anak pertama kami mahupun hari graduasi kami tetapi kerana hari itu merupakan hari kami memulakan TP yang bermakna latihan mengajar. Hari itu kami akan mulai merasakan lagi datang ke sekolah pada awal pagi melihat kanak-kanak memakai pakaian putih, seluar hijau bagi laki2 dan tudung serta baju putih dan kain berwarna bagi perempuan. Sebagai seorang insan sudah semestinya kami merasa gugup,takut,gembira,excited dan bermacam-macam perasaan yang sepatutnya dirasai oleh seorang manusia. Hari itu merupakan hari yang sangat indah sekali…
Sebelum kita melihat lebih dalam lagi tentang hari yang serba indah itu yang mana TUHAN telah mengaruniakan awan2 yang berarak bagaikan model dan matahari yang memancarkan sinarnya lebih daripada tiang lampu di Bandar Seri Begawan, kita lihat dulu kehidupan kami pada tahun2 sebelum TP…atupun kalau mahu meliat.. No forcing in love you know hehe..
Dulu keduanya bertiga (kalau kes urg kawin sudah majalah akan cakap cemani tu,,”Dulu hanya berdua sekarang bertiga”kan kan) ,kami bolehlah dipnggil Powerpuff Girls ataupun The Three Stooges tetapi oleh kerana salah seorang kami mepunyai kegeniusan yang ketara maka yang seorang ini mempunyai pluang untuk tidak perlu graduasi pada tahun yang sama. Tetapi ketiganya merupakan sahabat selamanya atau dalam pendeknya bolehlah dikatakan BFF kerana tetap mengharungi kehidupan universiti bersama. Bersama-sama kami mengenali para guru atau sebaiknya dipanggil lecturer seperti Dr Mo (bukan nama sebenar),Puan Khi(juga bukan nama sebenar..in fact nama nama sebenar tidak akan dinyatakan kecuali perlu), Cg Mat dan Sir Mark (nama sebenar).
Kadang2 byk inspirasi terbit daripada mengenali guru2 ini setelah lama berada di bawah pimpinan mereka. Inspirasi tersebutlah yang banyak menerbitkan keketawaan kami…apapun kami bersyukur mmpunyai guru2 seperti mereka.Dalam bidang sukan pula ketiganya agak aktif untuk sementara waktu, peribahasa ‘hangat2 tahi ayam’ bolehlah digunakan di sini. Dalam bidang pelajaran pula, kami selalu menyiapkan homework on time dan grades yang diperolehi agak memuaskan. Kawan2 yang diperolehi pula ada bermacam2 tetapi bersyukur lah dapat mengenali 100+ urang atu hehe…
Sekarang kita berbalik semula pada hari bersejarah tersebut…ceritanya cemani…ok maybe kadang2 bahasa yang kami pakai di sini ada baku, Melayu Brunei, English, Murut, Thailand(cam banar..) tetapi apa salahnya menggunakan pengetahuan kita untuk membuat hidup kita lebih siuk dan bermakna kan…
Pada hari tersebut, kami berdua c sur and saya dan kawan-kawan jua memang nda sanang duduk..macam rusa baru masuk kampung. Memang rasa nda biasalah but then kami faces it, eh I mean faced it..dengan muka yang tabah dan kuat…smile always…hehe
So, I was just trying to enjoy2 my time di staffroom with my bff c sur. Cerita2 kali tiba2 datanglah seorang kawan tp kami. Rupanya aku perlu mengajar tah tu…cikgu kelas atu kebetulan tah beranak that day. Bertuahlah baby ah…cute lah babynya hehe (2months after that plg c sur mereport sal baby cikgu tu)
Berjalan tah ku ke kelas atu…dengan rasa numb, nda tau apa yang perlu ku expect. Bila ku sampai ku lihat wah anak2 eh semua…fuyooo..lost ku banar sekajap. I expect utk observed sj d whole week kali mgajar tarus. Hmm…menggeletar kali sikit2 almaklum budak baru. ‘O my God’ saja balik2 dalam hati…haha
If c sur or Cg.Sur pun banyak interesting stories…the thing is banyaklah ‘pengalaman yang tidak dapat dilupakan’..chewah cakap cg.ustaz tu hehehe apa sur..’How’s the kids?’ Hmm..what do you think ja?
So months passed by,kira invaluable resources jualah kami atu to the school…positive thinking bah hehe. Funny jua,dulu rasa struggling bebanar (awu nyamu) now within 3 months culture shock atu kira kan abis dah effectnya. Bersyukurlah kita ke kepadaNYA.
Em..sekajap jua ah ceta ku sampai dah 3 months, nya urg cerita pendek..kap pun kap pon hehe..letihlah nak cerita banyak sangat. Pokok katanye,kalau anda inginkan cabaran yang hebat dalam hidup anda, ingin menambahkan pahala yang sedia ada, ingin bertemankan kanak2, inginkan hari2 yang berbeza setiap hari dan mempunyai tahap stress yang sihat bolehlah menawarkan diri untuk menjadi seorang guru…I tell u…tak boring, sah nikahnya nya urg.
Okey, sampai sinilah ya…tentunya cerita ini tidak akan berkesudahan apatah lagi sememangnya cerita orang yang hidup, jauh berbeza dengan cerita orang yang sudah jauh pergi (paham2 lah ah…please ah) Emm…apanya urang French cakap..Fin! Or Tamat or The End…for your information, sama saja tu the meaning ah. Don’t have to think too much what they mean k. Ta ta..tringat plg krita Tata sumo atu eh (cute jua namanya atu ah…p nda jua plg ada ku liat ciri2 sumo arah matuka atu..hmm…bingung ku mikirkan,jangantah dipikir kali eh) iatah krita yang kan bapa ku bali tu dulu2. Tapi nda kesampaian diri n smua yang terbaik for all.…nya urg cakap2 saja bah..imagining things ehehe.Bh bye2 dulu ah…jaga
diri. Sur, Aj finally i posted it!!HAHAHA
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I know YOU're there
I know YOU’re there
By Casting Crowns
If all I had was one last breath
I’d spend it just to sing YOUR praise
Just to say YOUR name
If all I had was one last prayer
I’d pray it cause I know
YOU’re always listening
If I could live a thousand lives,
Bind the hands of time
I would spend every moment
By YOUR side
‘cause I, I know YOU’re there
I know YOU see me
YOU’re the air I breathe
YOU are the ground beneath me
I know YOU’re there
I know YOU hear me
I can find YOU anywhere
If all I had was one more song to sing
I would raise my voice to make the heavens ring
If all I had was one last chance,
I’d take it
I would stake it all on YOU
If I could raise up high and
Catch a glimpse of every eye
I would make them believe what I feel inside…
I couldn’t have learned to love God this much if God hadn’t shown me that HE loves me patiently, fiercely and wholeheartedly. This song really help me to remind myself that despite anything..HE is my everything and I do love HIM. HE’s my Maker, Author of my life and the only God I shall serve all my life..May I always be faithful to YOU LORD JESUS as YOU are with me. Praise be to YOUR name LORD JESUS!!
And oh by the way, thanks Zeus for all the great songs yah.God bless ya -
Bounce bounce bounce bounce back
Hi friends,so today i had my supervisor observed me again for the second time..so guess what,i got a b..well,that was great than the first time if u remember hehe.. I was really trying my best,thank God for strengthening my heart.i wasnt so sure my supervisor was impressed,still he gave me wonderful comments to hear n read..wahh.. Feel so good to be able to bounce back from last time disappointments hehe.. Anywy,we all are still growing and learning..at least i am.so i gues,when my sv said this n that abt my weaknesses,he did me a favour.. Thx..sir.. Well,that's it for today,God bless u all..take care
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The Holidays
Hi there,
So the holidays have been great…really rejuvenating my skin haha as if...
Anyway, I had a cool time with my family considering we had to go here and there to buy stuffs for my brother because he will be living a bit far from us. He’s going for a 3 months attachment and then will be going abroad. It’s not just good for him, it’s really good for the family also…well…especially good for me cause I get to go around town, see some stuffs and eat out almost everyday (not good for my dad’s financial though but he’s a real stable man, if he says let’s eat out…let’s just do that). In other word, siuklahhh…
So, I haven’t done things macam my lesson plan yet. Essential for every teacher hehe I had a cool time practising with my brothers and sisters in Christ, very supportive, amazing people and unbelievably cool
Other stuffs…just lighten up, take it easy and enjoy every moment...uhh...I meant to say that to me hehee...still take care -
Teaching
Hey…
So I’ve done 3 weeks of my teaching practice and after week 4 I felt like a sense of inadequacy with myself especially after I had been observed by my supervisor who commented a lot about my weaknesses especially with my use of language it seemed that I used too much Brunei Malay, these children understand that what?!.. It’s the same feeling I had whenever I led in worship and I made mistake with the key, when the worship went down the hill instead of going up, when somehow I got nervous and I didn’t speak with clarity, when I expect the LORD to really show me HIS manifest presence and I felt like HE didn’t show up grandly. I never really would try to blame anything, if I would I only have myself to blame and this is why so many times I feel so disappointed with myself. It makes me feel that if only I could make things go the way I want them to be, the way I have prepared them to happen and the way I expect myself to perform.
About the observation, I prepared well for my supervisor to observe me and I guess at times our thinking and ideas might not be the same. so when he said this and that, I don’t feel like sharing what he said about me but just to let you know I hope he at least could be patient with a new teacher to be. At least he said that I’m positive and with this attribute I will be a better teacher as I gain more exposures and experiences…well I’m not sure where he saw my positivity though..;p
I guess I was really disappointed when he said that, cause I had my own expectation and to live up to the given result was kind of hard for me, meaning to take c+ grade instead of b…
It frustrates me to think…when people ask me to give my best when I’ve done my best? Just help me to be my best, show me…and don’t tell me to do my best…
After being observed and commented that way, it certainly got me thinking whether I really want to teach and being commented like that again. Most people would say, oh teacher is such an easy job, good working hours, many holidays… This was my thought before I really teach and involved in school programmes. If you have never teach in a real classroom with real kids in a real school don’t bother tell me I have the easiest job in the world, you haven’t had the slightest idea what you’re talking about. Then I begin to question my own vocation. It’s a serious job and it really can take up so much from you but when I really sit down and talk to God about it, HE makes me see beyond my present circumstances. Being a teacher is how I see myself investing in the young lives, serving them with how I know best and I had a tremendous feeling of joy to know they learned something from me, to see how I can just be effortlessly funny in front of them, to give them the opportunities to help me grow and learn through the hard times they give me and most of all…it humbles me to know that God is giving me what I can do not what I can’t. HE believes in us ya knaw hehe… I guess we all have our low and high tides but in those times never lose our faith and be strong. JESUS will always…always be by our side, HE will help you through. That is HIS promise, it’s in the bible... so believe HIM
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New Year 08
Hi to all and Selamat Tahun Baru, Happy New Year!! Want to say that in chinese, Greek, Hebrew, Indian etc but I just don't have the resources. So, like anyone who's got a blog, I'm pretty sure they
have a happy new year greeting in their blog. So, don't want to miss out lah..
Just wishing everyone a great time, a lot of fun, tighter friendships and do make mistakes but grow out of it oh and ya.. have more faith in yourselves, have more love, enjoy living in your dream
This is from me, until next time -
Sincerely with love...:)
Hi and peace be to you all
Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. 38This is the first and great commandment. 39And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.(Mat 22:37-39)
I am reminded that we all need to love each other because love can cast away so many hurts and fears. It is certainly not selfish…I see that kind of love through my parents who love me despite my failures or my inadequacy but most of all they love me for who I am…to them I’m beautiful, special and unique. I learn that love is having the sense that the other person’s happiness and wellness matter to you. Keep on loving! (Hmm...isn’t this motto almost the same with McDonald??) Such is the love that Christ demonstrates to me...ever loving, ever giving and never ending. To find such love would be the greatest treasure ever, when we learn to love unconditionally…I think it is something beyond my imagination cause I am learning as well. I would say, I find freedom and joy in love as great as Christ. Take care, I love you!
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My MEET THE ROBINSONS review
Oct 2007
Hi there,
I never thought I actually got more than just an animation movie with ‘MEET THE ROBINSONS’ I know it is last year movie perhaps hehe. I thought oh yeah this might be a fun, loving movie…man I was wrong.
I was deeply moved halfway through the movie…like any movie that successfully caused my heart to stir (hehe), jump up and down and cause my jaw to drop open because of the surprise elements that keep on unfolding, yeah this movie did that to me.
At first I learned, true you have to believe in yourself. It is true that it can be hard when you receive all the negative feedbacks about things you do, makes you feel like you’re not doing good enough, that you’re no good until you really did screw up. Nevertheless, you have to believe in yourself, believe in your potential, believe that you are capable to achieve what you want…believe in those little dreams you have at the back of your mind. I think it is disrespectful to deny the gift that God has placed inside of you, so believe
The second thing is…that our past can be anything, anything at all…what we know about the future anyway doesn’t really matter. What do we know about the present? It is an awesome wonder how those little details in our lives could contribute to the making of some major things in our lives. How some little knocks on a door on a rainy night could make a future (well, saw that in MEET THE ROBINSONS…a touching scene really and oh now I’m watching almost the end of this movie listening to its soundtrack that Little Wonders song by this ex-member of matchbox twenty, what’s his name
God is able to knit our intricate life into a beautiful beautiful beautiful future whether we were a mess, being a hopeful person, saw the tragedies that came around, thought that we live the worst life ever or just being that little kid with that passion in our heart. Truth is God is not even done with you or me yet…there is yet more to be unfolded. Keep on believing in you, because God does so, let go the past failures or anything that keep on holding you back and you know what Cornelius Robinsons says “Keep on moving forward!” oh not forgetting, family can be a powerful force in life, don’t forget that. Yeah…God is an awe-inspiring designer of everything, oh the wisdom of the LORD.
God loves you!
