Blog 46
What's a blog?Why we blog it?haha...just blog it and pour it out..
basically,that may be what I'm doing..yeah..it is.
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August
Hello there,
It’s the month of august!Welcome august So this is the birthday month for a lot of my friends, best friend and my fiancé I almost forgot about his birthday;p I still remember the first time we celebrated his birthday together..it was his first birthday celebration maybe after so many years. So for me to celebrate it together with him at that time was an honour and a joyful one This year, we will be celebrating as an engaged couple, believe me that is God’s goodness!
I guess this is the last birthday we will be celebrating as an unmarried couple..as we are going to get married in November this year 2011. As I remember back our growth in our relationship being friends, to dating couple to engaged couple…we were really young and I feel like im standing a bit taller right now than I was before. A lot of lesson learned, a lot of grace being given out and a lot of laughter and tears along the way. We started out as strangers and finally managed to get our hearts in tune and syncing with each other opinions and ways.Blessed be the Lord!
As right now,im having someone who always try to be understanding (believe me,this thing is tough!haha),being patient and concerned about a lot of things. As we were experiencing a lot about our own issues, it taught us a lot about being able to give grace, forgiveness and love..it taught about how amazing Christ’s love is for us. So I feel deeply blessed when I think about the guy that he is..there’s more to come but right now,I just embrace the moment and celebrate his birthday soon!
You are loved!xxx -
Remember when..
Hello there,
wow its been a while since i write..i never thought that i wont write,i have been writing all my life, well so to say meditating on life inspiration and writing it down. Until few years back,life got busy, we got a lot of things to do at hands that its just like going through the tides.High and low..and in the process forgetting about those things that help to keep us fresh, alive, energetic..we might have missed a lot of thing as we forget to cherish what we should have.
A little reminder is cool enough to at least pull us back and make us sit down and look upon all of those things that break us, that make us stronger, that make us a better person,giving our life a better and unforgettable memories. Cheers..God bless -
Status
Hello there,
its a new year and ive found a new kind of freedom in a state of well...different status.Ive gotten engaged recently with a great man.in fact he's just that you know humble, look into others need(well wouldnt mind if its my need haha;p),sensitive to people's feelings..all in all we're just growing and learning to be a better person, partner and especially as man and woman of God
So being engaged,i wasnt really aware that's the part of my plan...however the moment it happpened im just so awestruck by how God carries us both to this state.We're both still have quite a lot to learn by just having him there by my side being patience and doing the best he could as someone who really cares about me..im just so gratefulI couldnt say less..
Well,just hoping through this different dimension of our relationship, i'll be i mean..we both will be strong, loving God and each other more every step of the way. My world just keeps getting better...xoxo
Mel -
Almost the end of year 2010
Hey there,
Haven’t blog anything for quite sometimes, in fact rarely these days. If this is work, I probably am dismissed by now..ha..again its almost the end of the year, should I get up and dance or mopping around in tears afraid of the unknown year ahead. Personally, I probably would have done both..and always did. I am so very thankful for the exclusive gift God can gift to a woman..her laughters and her tears. Surrendered during happy moments and surrendered even more during rougher times. Then again, it’s good to have someone or something to blame on, example for the rollercoaster of emotions, I can blame it on PMS, which trigger my nerve extremely weirder than normal days. Gosh, so thankful some people can just stand me snapping…ha…
So 2010, it’s always somehow like December is out of reach but sooner or later you finally just arrived. You wonder how somehow u made it to a destination you imagine you would arrive in a million year. But here’s the thing, u just could, u just would, before u know it..here u are and by this time, imagine a soundtrack of your choice and a spotlight on you…and u saying Here I am. Wow that boldness . I believe though whatever courses u have taken along the way., you have done your very best. Bold, brave, better. Maybe some mistakes that u cannot take away, some regrets, those plans that you have planned were not going the way u imagine it to be, not forgetting..some laughter u have caused, some heartaches you have met, some harder days at times, some beautiful sunny days that it burned.. I’m not sure how we can sometimes answer to people, to base it on our experience, copying it from another’s, making up our own brilliant answer or being just what we can regardless of the outcome. Again, I know u have done your very best, there’s no way u can let another person saying that you’re not about your life.
But another new year means another best of you..*smile* .Another new day, would be another new person of you, what more can I say about a new year?I think even another more polished you. Whatever that polished of yours is….my advice is do smile, do laugh, do cry, do feel hurt, do feel scare, do feel nervous, do take your bath, do tidy up your room, do hug you loved ones, do pray, just do live…
Am I sound like such a strong person to face my new year, well yes and no... like everyone else, we all need somewhere where we can hang on to, where we belong..and I think we need a mind that is more sophisticated than our own. I’ve seen that truth..cheers to God who will be with us till dusk ,midnight, dawn, morning..repeatedly. Love you and have an amazing new year.
Hugs!
Mel -
one morning sept 13,2009
One morning I realized how I always give my reasons to God,
Somehow there’s always new ideas or a wisdom I thought I haven’t thought about,
Or that God hasn’t revealed to me all these times..perhaps He’s just waiting for the right moment to tell me..
But every single time God gently reminds me of His truth, I tried pointing out to God what I’ve discovered, yet He’s saying the same thing again
Reminding me of His truth, patiently He leads me again…the compassion of God is nothing like you can ever imagine
As vast as your mind can think, as greater as the molecules that hold this earth..
His presence of love and mercy is mighty all through the time..this I know, my heart clench every time I remember HIS goodness , leading and provision.
love,Mel -
A little love story
Hello...
When I was about to do my work..something just sneak in, so typical inspiration..come without any concern of my whereabouts and circumstance.hmm hehe. Well..here’s a thing, me and my dear one are about to hit 11th months of our courtship. I thought its a year, but oh ya that has to wait until next month I always think that we both pretty had a good start from the beginning, being each other’s friend for a year or two before suddenly somehow something magical happened..we suddenly see each other in a different light…suddenly there’s a possibility of being more than just friends. And im always thankful to God for that…*smile sweetly*
So, walking through those months of sharing much parts of your life with someone with his own ideals, background, opinions, ways of doing things is pretty much exciting, an eye opener and even taught me to see love in a more deeper way. Now, don’t get me wrong, I don’t say that I know so much about love like someone who’s being married..that will come in another later chapter of my life. I have never thought that in so many ways I could have known, learned and experienced so much about God’s characters in my relationship. About God’s goodness, generosity, kindness, faithfulness, forgiveness, gentleness, comforts and His amazing love.
I would say, looking back..when we were just getting to know each other, trying to make sense of our decision to be in a steady relationship, working through our hearts and minds are pretty easy as we were both still trying to please, probably trying to impress each other. It was a phase where we were just switching on the engine to go for a road trip or something. I never really expected there could be so much going on …yeah sure I know there will be but to have the knowledge without experiencing it first-hand..is still not enough.
I had my times of knowing, love is beautiful, love is a great essence, love is what moves our hardened heart, love is sweet, love takes courage, love takes risk, love dares thing and love is a choice. So being in a Christian family, loving God, honouring God..i was taught that in anything you do, anywhere you go and whoever you meet, let God be glorified, let God be known, to be a good witness. God even had prepared my heart that if I were to be in a relationship with someone, to keep in mind that he is still my brother in Christ,to respect and honour that person because God is so. So getting to know someone in a more deeper way really takes great heart..because you don’t just get to know this person, you need strength to accept another human being, to love someone in truth, not just when you can but when you can’t.
So there’s a lot of mixed feeling as we go down the road, it’s even unbelievably a lot of feelings that has to be dealt with. I can’t even understand it to begin with and you can’t really just spill it out cause you’re afraid that you might be considered ridiculous. But just as God wanted you to be able to be honest about yourself before Him without being afraid that’s He’s going to be judgemental. That’s how I learn to embrace in this relationship. Another facet of being in a relationship. What a joy to have someone who listens to you just the way you are!! Thanks dear for even trying That’s how my God is and that’s how we should be A listening and accepting God He is!
So to speak, I can’t believe I’m with an amazing person in my life. It never occurs in my mind at all, all that is going on in my life right now. Sure, we do have our moments where we feel annoyed at each other, we laughed hard together and had great times together. With all of this added together in already so many things in my life…i am joyfully glad that God uses this person, this experiences, this relationship for me to appreciate this beautiful and wonderful life, no matter how broken it is.;.God loves us
I pray that we both will walk together in His light, that the love we have for each other will be kept well and pure.xxx -
Abandonment
Hey there,
There always something that we can talk about when it comes to God’s love. Seven or thousand of generations will always have something to say about God’s magnificent, enduring love. This great love of God is what caused Him to do what He does. I guess that’s what written in the Book “Oh, the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and the knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgments and unfathomable His ways!” Romans 11:33 He knows the very best for us We learn, see it along the way and may we have the heart to share that with others. Recently, I learned a term called abandonment. I think the feeling of being abandoned is a very fearful feeling. You’re afraid about what you’re going to do if no one would be there by your side, if you have to do things you didn’t know about alone, if you’re trying to do all things alone. You feel abandoned, hopeless, uncertain, unwanted. You just have no idea what you’re going to do. In the bible Jesus talked about helping the needy, the poor, the widows and the orphans and not taking away their rights. It pretty much says that don’t ever mess up with them just because someone they have trusted and loved have left them. I’m pretty sure they know what it feels to have a sense of abandonment. But through it all He will never leave them nor forsake them, He will be their Guard, their Defender, their Protector.
I was going through a situation that made me feel abandoned, alone, being left to stand on my own, to fight on my own...i was feeling hopeless altogether. But you know what, when God says He will never leave u nor forsake u He’s talking serious. I am reminded that my true refuge is not in anything or anyone..it’s in Christ Jesus alone. It becomes clear as He gently comfort my heart, listening to what He says (You know He says it when that’s what You read in the bible..so do read your bible, that’s His Words
) How overwhelming is that peaceful feeling.
“I lift up my eyes to the hills-where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.” Psalm 121:1-2
“Blessed are you, O Israel! Who is like you, a people saved by the LORD? He is your shield and helper and your glorious sword” Deuteronomy 33:26,29
God bless, stay connected to Himespecially in nowadays crazy crazy happenings in the world.. -
Rain rain go away..come again another day....:)
Hey there, happy new year 2010;D
My saturday morning drive to school was a slow, embracing the moment kind of thing. It was raining a bit, with some grey clouds above. I’ve always love rain ever since when I was so little, I love the smell, the gentle breeze and those sprinkling drops..but the truth that I’ve learned from those falling rain is that, if you want to see just how much God loves u, look at a drop and then look at how many drops are falling on the surface of the earth. Those drops symbolises his love. (well another person might symbolises them for something else) At least that’s how I would like to remind myself. There’s just something about rain that people are drawn this kind of weather.
But one day, I come to hate rain.. Our families were planning to go picnicking to this beach. So the day before, me and my cousins..well practically all of us the kids were pretty excited. That day however, looked like it was going to rain, and we overheard the parents mentioning that we probably had to cancel our plan. My little heart crushed, thinking because it was going to rain we have to cancel our plan?!what on earth?!I wished hard enough that rain would not fall that day, something that I thought I would never do in my life..to hope that rain would not fall (We went anyway, it probably rained a bit but stopped not long after that).
So this is where my using another analogy to a real life comes in;p.. We could have believed, trusted, loved God so much that we never thought of ever strayed, be far away or distrust God. One time, when we have a plan in mind and He had another . He thwarted our plan and we become upset. We started to reason with God, telling Him that we had it well planned and this is how the outcome is going to be. We make God looks like He’s missing something brilliant that we have thought about. Sometimes when God has a different plan..well, you know how this goes..He has something better in mind bla..bla..true enough..
But here it is, our plan usually is about how we can make the situation getting the outcome we want, at its time. God’s plan usually involves the best outcome for everyone in time and time to come although it doesn’t seem like it in the present. God’s love is
huge!
We may have loved rain, but sometimes when rain n causes our plan for that day to change, cancel or postpone..to put it simply.. try to remember that even so God’s love that will never change and they are always in big quantity. May we keep holding on! Love u (^^,)v
P/s: Had my birthday these past few days, lived for 23 years+ and I can assure you that my walk under the rain or the sun with many plans in my mind had sometimes been approved...and sometimes God just be quiet patiently ,willingly, lovingly listen to my whatsoever ideas..And softly said after that, ‘My child, you’ve had it really well planned but that has got to wait..’
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A Choice
Hello there,
S o it’s been quite sometimes..hello there I remember one evening me and my cousin were sitting at the porch at our grandparents’ house. Christmas was almost over and both of our families were going to head home that evening leaving behind our grandparents until the next school holidays.
Me and my cousin were very reluctant to go home that day...not because we’ll miss our grandparents...well maybe a bit but largely because we were leaving behind a boy we had a crush on. Because of him we were always excited to go to church in that small town and every move, every glance he made, we translated it that he surely had the same feeling towards us. I mean it was kind like funny to think, maybe he had to choose between us but that was okay with us..I guess we thought if he chose anyone of us, we can have the brother. Such was the game... Somehow that evening, we came up with something…a phrase that we still remember up to this day... ‘time change, people change’
As young as we were that holidays, we understood that one day perhaps we will not feel the same way towards that boy but what a pain we felt to wait for that day to come cause we liked this boy verrryyy muchhh..haha..but years passed by we never see him again. Once my cousin saw this boy again…sure enough, whatever remains was just a memory of us having a crush on this boy. And so, time change and people change…different times bring with people different emotions, creativity, feelings..nobody stays the same, people should grow..because change matters, but the choice to whether we want to change for good or worse is ours. There is always a choice. With this I recommend we listen to Switchfoot ‘This is home’. Have a lovely time today -
History in the making
Hey,
t's a weird thing that some of the most outrageous things are happening in this season of history. I think other times in the past there were surely other things as well..some were great history. But I've witnessed diseases, wars, changes in economy and politics changing and coming in this world. These things affect us one way or another, and you're in it before you know it. To be even a small part of that is beyond comprehension.Like pastor Darlene said, 'what a great responsibility trusted to us in this time of history'..to become genuine worshippers of the LORD, to keep on praying despite what we see. Praise the LORD for all the prayer warriors out there, with their prayers lifted up in times like this, that God has shown HIS mercy and grace and often times rescue us from these natural disasters, diseases etc..if we allow HIM to.Rest in HIS unfailing love, rest in HIS power, rest in HIS presence, ultimately nothing compare to that..
YOU hold us LORD in YOUR mighty arms,
We believe in YOU,we stand in YOUR WORD,
YOUR promises,we will see a better, brighter day,
when we put our trust in YOUR NAME JESUS,
nothing can separate us from YOUR LOVE LORD,
let our heart set upon YOU,OH GOD
let each breath speaks YOUR NAME,
our hope is in YOU,for YOU will save the day
All glory to YOUR NAME..AMEN.
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