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Loss

Dev_S — Tue, 12 May 2009 01:20:41 UT

I'm feel I'm slowly fading away
My life, slipping into the past
I'm failing to make it today
I've fallen out way to fast

It seems I've received so much praise
for simply being the friend I am
Yet the best I am, in this age
is not enough, they don't have a damn

These people just don't seem to care
All these friends I thought i knew
leaving, it feels truly unfair
At last, my fears are coming true

All that I know I can do now
is hold onto what I have still
Losing my life I can't allow
but sometimes it's me I want to kill

Blood Reign

Dev_S — Sun, 22 Mar 2009 07:00:41 UT

All the years of pain I have felt
All the times to Death have I knelt
Constant submission to my nothing
The suppression of pain this life brings

The nightmares of fear i could return
Screams of terror that cause them to burn
The constant bloodlust I have gained
The omni-present hate that all have rained

To be shed of my mortal life
Embodiment of soul within this knife
Unleash the corrupted pain felt within
Plunge into awaiting flesh, my skin

Physical incarnation of Hate
The fear to bring is only that of fate
Bringing my very own apocalypse
You taste the death that drips from my lips

Now I float among their own nightmares
Giving every dream my darkness, tears
All shall feel Fear, All shall feel Pain
All shall witness my vengeful Blood Reign

Finally, another poem worth putting up here

Dev_S — Fri, 13 Mar 2009 04:36:57 UT

Times lately have been so troubled
I have now been truly humbled
As so many rights have turned wrong
As lonely nights grow ever so long

My links to joy have become less
Losing all that I know does depress
I know I could leave this world now
They would all be happier somehow

Any sense of relief I could find
would, to the truth, make me blind
When ignorance can truly be bliss
From memories I sorely miss

As my days have now grown darker
The light by which I see grows starker
I can look to when I was so high
And give the faintest whisper...Goodbye

Revenge

Dev_S — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 23:50:21 UT

In this dark and massacred land
A story is blown through the sand
In this story, it will be told
How a thousand souls have been sold
A deathly deal with the Devil
And a man was told to rebel
With sword in hand and hate in heart
He rose above, and a war did start
He travelled across seas of fire
Hellish plains and castle spires
Leaving a legend in his wake
To avenge those souls been forsaken

When finally, he did arrive
A miracle he was alive
A kingdom overlooking hell
Ruled by nothing, an empty shell
His grip on the sword had tightened
The king of the land was frightened
He saw the man, hate in his eyes
And he saw his sword, his demise
And as the king turned to scarper
He saw the end to this encounter
A flash of steel in the midday sun
And over the floor, the kings blood did run

This was a really old poem by me. I forget when exactly I wrote this.

Loving Reunion. Heartbreaking Reality.

Dev_S — Tue, 05 Aug 2008 04:03:45 UT

It's been a month since I saw you last
Infatuated thoughts of you
I really thought they had passed
My hopes for you have still been dashed
And I must leave my love in the past

There is a big challenge I must face
While my heart yearns to be with you
To not show how I feel, my mind races
You are to close though, your love I can taste
I just wish I could tell you, face to face

My one wish, to hold your hand in mine
And to tell you how much I love you
It seems I'm waiting for a sign
To hold you in my arms and call you mine
Though that will never come, my heart keeps cryin'

I must say goodbye, to my hopes and dreams
Of one day telling you I love you
My soul has been split upon it's seams
My heartbreak been taken to extremes
And my tears designing loving schemes

yeah. my first poem in about two months. I'm a bit rusty, I know. but I'm just happy I'm over my writers block.

Love out of Reach

Dev_S — Wed, 14 May 2008 04:32:50 UT

I find it hard to tell you
The pain of love I go through
The pain I cause to those who
To those who love me
Though this pain is nothing new
It is not what I wish to be
To cause pain, I don't want to see
From this curse, I wish to be free

Being the nice guy has a price
Makes my heart, as cold as Ice
But I promise, I cannot slice
Lest I find love I desire
A love that will entice
I love to take me higher
Love, that could dance on a wire
Love, I would never be a liar

I found the one to warm my heart
Sadly, we are always apart
Separated by an art
A thousand miles of the country
And the hold of her lovers heart
A long and tiresome journey
To help my love come to see
For her love there is nobody
that is better for her, than me

Gone

Dev_S — Fri, 25 Apr 2008 03:26:03 UT

Sitting here in detention
Trying to escape the mention
That I am simply alone
Listening to the teacher drone
"What a fool" I think to me
I never wanted this to be

This life is all very simple
I need no visit to temple
Just be able to shut my mouth
And think, "Oh there goes my youth"
Leading not unto happiness
But showing death by distress

I need none of the sympathy
I get none of the empathy
I have none of the love to mate
I want none of the burning hate
I receive what I do not want
I lose my friends, and now they haunt

I honestly can't live this way
I am feeling death, day after day
Something bad needs to change, and soon
Or my body be found, high noon
I can leave this land of sorrow
And be taken home down below

Confusion

Dev_S — Sat, 08 Mar 2008 00:28:40 UT

The truth is, Unknown in this haze
We are all lies
All there is, Confusion for days
We never try

We can say we know reality
Illusion of Life
We are blind to the impurity
Confusion and Strife

Our lives have been faded
We know only lies
The minds of the jaded
The truth never flies

So many actions undone
So many words unsaid
Either the truth we will shun
Or the lies we have bid

Pure Hatred...yeah...another poem

Dev_S — Fri, 15 Feb 2008 02:45:24 UT

My loathing for you is endless
My hatred makes me mindless
My fury, I can never express
You don't see how much I suppress

You break my heart, drop me dead
My heart has never so much bled
Drowning in the tears that I shed
My soul is black, my eyes are red

You go to steal my best friend
And intoxicate her to no end
Fear and Pain are what I now send
Your life is what I hope to end

You have made me a different man
I no longer hold your vile hand
It was your soul that you have damned
Knife to your throat, now in my hand

Yeah, I know it's a lot darker than my usual work.

younger women with older men. wtf.

Dev_S — Tue, 12 Feb 2008 02:59:43 UT

Ok, I've been noticing a trend in ladies recently. No, I'm not trying to stereotype or make assumptions, but I just want to point this out and ask why.

Ok now, I've been noticing a lot of young girls that choose to be with guys much older than them, rather than guys in the same age, or at least close to it. I've seen a lot of 13 and 14 year old girls with boyfriends at 16-17 years old, even a couple that are 18 years old. I just want to know exactly why they choose to be with these older men, instead of guys closer to their own age. I'm pretty sure that if you look around for guys your own age, you'll find a lot more good ones than you think. I'm starting to be really concerned, mainly for some girls that are my really close friends, and are around my age, if not younger, but they have chosen to have a boyfriend maybe 4 or 5 years older than them.

So ladies, I ask you this. Why is it that the majority of you choose to have boyfriends much older than you? I'm just looking for a good reason why this is happening.

The Break up / Part 2

Dev_S — Thu, 24 Jan 2008 06:16:40 UT

I am realizing the mistake I made
The mistake that cut both our hearts with the blade
The blade made up from words of the wrong charade
The charade that caused me to have the wrong tirade

The pain that comes from regret
My mind races as I watch the sun set
This love is something we shouldn't forget
I don't want to put your heart in a hockey net

If I thought the truth was always being told
I would have realized that neither of us are so bold
We cherish each other, Neither of us should be sold
This love is known, but it shall remain untold

I welcome you back into my love
I hold you in my arms as you take me above
I want to feel your warmth once more
I want your tender heart to soar

Yes, I know. It's not as good as part 1. but leave some comments anyway

The break up / Part 1

Dev_S — Wed, 23 Jan 2008 03:57:33 UT

Saying I love you is never enough
Trying to keep this together, it's tough
This relationship, it's going way to rough
I guess my personality just isn't to buff

Saying I care, you consider it a lie
Finding it hard not to do drugs, to get high
It hurts, My heart is frozen in a cry
The end of this love, It soon draws nigh

I can't take this fighting anymore
I miss the feeling of love, My spirit soars
This pain is something I can't ignore
The opportunity is knocking, I will open the door

Your heart might have been broken, so is mine
Hearing you cry, it pushes me past the line
I can only hope that we will be fine
Your love for me, it was always divine

Pain

Dev_S — Wed, 28 Nov 2007 05:59:02 UT

The greatest pain I have ever felt
Is not being hit with a belt
It is not being beaten to death
Nor is it feeling my last breath

The greatest disspointment I have ever known
Is not the sting of a toenail, ingrown
It is not merely a broken bone
Nor is it seeing my greatest enemy take the throne

The greatest challenge I have ever faced
Is not simply getting that test aced
It is not finding the one true love
Nor is it going that simple step above

No, The greatest hardship I have ever faced
Is having the devotion of my two friends debased
It is seeing love, torn apart before me
And knowing I can do nothing for thee

Tell me what you think please

I'm complaining again

Dev_S — Sat, 17 Nov 2007 00:51:43 UT

What's the deal with....everyone, on here, who posts comments on pictures that are hardly readable. The only words that are spelled right consist of one, maybe two letters. Now, I don't know how the people receiving those comments feel, but I know if I were them, I wouldn't bother thanking whoever posted the comment, because I wouldn't be able to know what the hell they were trying to say in the first place. Spelling is quite possibly the easiest skill on the planet, and few people seem to have actually grasped it. IT'S NOT THAT HARD PEOPLE! You don't have to have word spellcheck your work to know if something is spelled wrong. If you use the reason that bad spelling is faster, I bet you I could type not only faster than you, but better as well. Now all I request is that you stop making yourselves look like complete morons with these picture comments, and start spelling so that most people can read you without any problems.

remember

Dev_S — Sat, 10 Nov 2007 00:42:29 UT

The power of love is strong
I never thought it would lead me wrong
You could have kept me together
If you had thought this was forever

I remember your smile, your laugh
I remember you cut my heart in half
I remember your tears, your sadness
I remember you caused my madness

The feelings that I don't want to forget
Are the feelings that cause my regret
If only I could express them
I wouldn't have to repress them

I remember your beauty, your charm
I remember you never forewarned
I remember your love
I remember you, and me
I don't want to forget
the feelings that cause my regret

another poem....

Dev_S — Sat, 03 Nov 2007 22:27:56 UT

Could we have a Moment of Silence
To remember all of the hearts
That were broken and lost
Because of love's pure frost

Could we have a Moment of Silence
To remember all of the tears
That have been shed and cried
Because of our main fear

Could we have a Moment of Silence
To remember all of the love
That has been lost and forgotten
Because nobody seems to care

Could we have a Moment of Silence
To remember all of the hope
That has been broken and shattered
Along with these hearts that have bled

Please, just give us a Moment of Silence
To remember and realize
The truth behind our false lies

not my best work, I know, but some people still think it's good.

My second poem

Dev_S — Fri, 19 Oct 2007 02:42:27 UT

Amazing how it always happens like this
It starts with a smile and ends with a kiss
What happens along the way makes me reminisce
And realize how all these things are amiss

Amazing how two people who've never met
Can end up as the perfect set
When I see your face I'm never upset
And I will never have a single regret

Amazing how a relationship that had never been
Could end up as the one that everyone has seen
Nobody has tried to step between
The unknown love, addictive as nicotine

Amazing how we don't know what we feel
Until it's to late, my head spins and reels
I love going through this painful ordeal
If only to you, I get to sit and kneel

A poem I wrote

Dev_S — Thu, 06 Sep 2007 23:12:41 UT

I was happy as can be
more than your eyes could see
I know I didn't show it
you were supposed to notice
I would have died for you
I loved you more than anything
I know I didn't show it
but you were supposed to notice

Lonely and Broken
Without you by my side
Lonely and Broken
I have nowhere to hide
Lonely and Broken
In you I confide

Over the summer
I thought we were going to be together
I thought we were forever
I guess I thought wrong
You say I don't care anymore
That makes me feel sore
If you only knew my truth
I was an idiot in my youth

Lonely and Broken
Without you by my side
Lonely and Broken
I have nowhere to hide
Lonely and Broken
In you I confide

You say you care about me
yet you don't even talk to me
You say you want to be friends
Yet the sad truth gives me the bends
I want you to know how I feel
It's like I ate my last meal
I can't be happy anymore
My spirit lives fallen and torn

Lonely and Broken
Without you by my side
Lonely and Broken
I have nowhere to hide
Lonely and Broken
In you I confide

You say I treated you badly
I never intended to, sadly
You say I tried to avoid you
Yet I wanted nothing more than to be with you
You think I'm an ass
The truth is I'm an idiot, facing an impasse

Lonely and Broken
Without you by my side
Lonely and Broken
I have nowhere to hide
Lonely and Broken
In you I confide

Dedicated to M.R.S.

well, that's the first poem I've ever wrote. Lemme know what you think. be brutally honest.

Mass Hypocrisy

Dev_S — Sun, 26 Aug 2007 18:42:02 UT

To all the perverted guys on netlog: most of you are just making yourselves look like horny bastards who just want to get laid. it's not helping the male stereotype that all men are assholes looking for nothing more than sex. To all the guys posting blogs against those people, good for you. I do seem to find a problem with you guys as well though. one day, I'm readin a guys blog that girls should get respect, and I'm agreeing with him the whole time. a couple hours later, I find him asking girls for cam-to-cam shit. there are a few guys on here who aren't like this. they will write a good blog, and not turn on it an hour later. I commend those guys. my point: If your a guy, don't be an asshole who just wants to get laid, and don't post blog messages asking people to respect women if your gonna ask for a cam-to-cam show an hour later. your just being an idiotic hypocrit if you do. You should respect women for who they are, and not be jumping at every opportunity to have sex.

To all the slutty girls on netlog: stop posting half naked pictures of yourselves. it doesn't get you the respect you want. in fact, it wouldn't get you ANY respect, so why do you do it? do you want horny perverts to come onto your page and say stuff like "mmm girl I'd fuck that", does that make you happy to know that all a guy want with you is to fuck you? there are also girls that I see agreeing with blogs about giving women respect and stopping guys from being assholes, then I check their profile, and lo and behold, they are contradicting everything they just said by having a couple pictures in just a bra and panties on their profile. I will admit though, there are some girls that don't do this, and I for one respect them a lot more than if they did do that. my point: girls, don't post pictures that make you look like sluts, it doesn't get you any respect, and don't go agreeing with the good blogs if all I'm gonna find on your profile is a complete contradiction of what you just said. its just makes you hypocritical. You have to respect yourself before anyone else can respect you.

Music

Dev_S — Sun, 26 Aug 2007 00:58:38 UT

I need new music. seriously. I want to listen to some good artists that I haven't heard yet. I like almost all music styles, mostly metal, rock, punk, techno, hip-hop and rap. give me some suggestions. anything. please give me some good suggestions, ANYTHING, so long as its good music.