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AstridMalia — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 21:55:27 UT

So I haven't been online
that's why I been haven't replied to you guys
I forgot to tell you all my birthday was yesterday "6/15/09";
so it will be kinda late to say happy birthday to me but I will accept it
so you guys can say happy birthday to me
I have alot of goals this year to do
goals like:

-Passing my permit so I can practice on my driving (':
-Getting myself a job
-Make a project for my summer reading which I will be reading "My Sister's Keeper"
-Try to pass my MCAS exam in November

I head that the movie look really good to watch.
I rather read the book first.
Fuck Twilight.
Jesus they won like five awards already.
The movie wasn't even that good and it didn't make no fucking sense at all
But yeah to me the love and vampires are just shit
But when someone makes a movie about Acute Promyelocytic Leukemia. then it breaks your heart
because you find someone and they're is a disease they have
I wanna see that movie with my sister but I am not sure
Their is a movie is about some girl killing everyone
it's actually rated R but I wanna see it will my sister
and everyone keeps talking about "Drag Me To Hell" to me I thought it would be a good movie to watch
but yeah some movies I saw are just random and boring and a little funny but not that much
I am hoping the movie called "My Sister's Keeper" wins 1 or 2 Oscars because it looks like a pretty good movie to watch alot (': <3.

New Peom made on 6/20/09

AstridMalia — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 21:51:40 UT

As I fall to my knee's,
I feel that bleeding inside of me,
From broken bones to a hurtful spine,
Leaving this all behind me,

Hearing the calls of your voice,
Makes me wanna lie in bed,
Crying on the floor by myself,
From the hell inside of me,

I hear the cries of heavy sorrow,
Drowning me in the ocean,
As you can find me dead,
With my eyes shut in the water,

This is so imperfection that we have,
As we follow the death of disaster to hell,
There is not such thing as heaven,
While we just keep sleeping in the dirt.

Okay stop with the drama shit

AstridMalia — Tue, 10 Mar 2009 08:43:03 UT

It's just so pathetic
and real I don't need to see your dick or see your naked body on cam
it's just getting me mad so really just knock the fuck off
I am only 15 years of age and you guys are like maybe 18 or 25 years old
you should know that's sexual rape
only if I told you where my street number is
but you'll never know where it is anyway
just grow the fuck up, this is not a fucking porno site and yeah don't bother to add me if your just going to talk about sex
I may be single but that does not mean people can be perverts around me
so knock the fuck off and stop being so fucking negative about it
because I can deal with it anymore
don't even bother adding me on here or anywhere else if your just going to talk about sex
seriously go get a god damn stripper for all I care and leave me the fuck alone okay got that?
GOOD

Hmm BLANK XD

AstridMalia — Sun, 22 Feb 2009 15:14:20 UT

I need to hug a dead cold bunny
then I want to bundle up in some blood
but yeah it still would be called out for me
... I've got it, I will start reading something that is about the death of a person
NO that maybe not it ugh
*Got to think of something* we just need to find something for the crime scene
have any of you watched Spiral which is a Manga book
ugh I don't know what to say about this little Journal I just made
and I have a white paint stain on me
WHAT THE FUCK D:

Disturbed - New Disease

AstridMalia — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 00:03:23 UT

Now,I can't take this
Everything I know
Realized that I'm nothing I wanted to be
I can never change
Anything I've done
Because it's the only thing I have left

Blame myself again
For what I didn't do
Never really knew it was coming from me
Change the way I fell
For work didn't get too close
Because I have gone too far now

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody
Change my mind
And it leads you to a new disease

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

Today

Is this all worth what
This has done to me
Water down my satires and turn them all on to me
Not for reality
And everything I know
If I didn't hate this then I couldn't go
Impersonate myself for what I used to be
Denial is all that's left now

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody
Change my mind
And it leads you to a new disease

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody
Change my mind
And it leads me to a new disease

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

Dreaming in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember when this meant so much to me

No! Did I ever want it?
And I coulda been
And I woulda been

No! Did I ever want it?
And I coulda been
And I woulda been

Conceiving in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember when
This meant so much to me

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody
Change my mind
And it leads you to a new disease

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease

This song reminds me of my flash backs <3, I miss it so m

AstridMalia — Fri, 06 Feb 2009 03:08:02 UT

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place
where I find peace, again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light, to my soul.
You are my purpose, you're everything.

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You still my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want, you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need.
You're everything, everything.

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better, any better than this.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

My new peom <3

AstridMalia — Fri, 06 Feb 2009 00:54:58 UT

She smile her laughter but forgiveness she's after
The truth will come sooner but this will be cleaner
Of all the truths of lying to the one's you stood up for
The only one's that you cared for all your life

Now you thrown though's thought's away
Forever we will seek but forever we will collide the truth
Your instant smile goes and fades away from me
The sound of your voice cracks into tiny little people

Forever I found myself all alone in this little world
It's just so easy to figure out where I can get out of this place
But I just have to kill this loneliness to forgive the people I killed
Of till tomorrow the drugs wouldn't work on me again

The walls creak after I step in the house of darkness
The heroine of the drugs will make me sleepy forever
The crows will makes sounds of sorts of noises
The sky turns black and red burning down on the water

Musica; Fully Alive - Flyleaf

Okay I am sick of this!!

AstridMalia — Sun, 01 Feb 2009 20:10:17 UT

I can discuss about this shit about the guys being perverts
I don't want to see your dick so shut the fuck up
I am sick of it and disturbed alot
fucking leave me alone if your fucking just going to be a pervert and say you love me and then say wanna see my dick
go shove it right up your fucking ass okay
and I am not agreeing on people who say the guys are perverts on online these days
I know that but I am just sick of it
I am already fucking sick of the gross shit
GO GET FUCKING LAID ALREADY AND LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE
don't add me if you are just going to end up being a pervert
this is only for the guys only
girls do you agree with me that some guys are perverts
they're fucking twats

So yeah I've been kinda miserable

AstridMalia — Tue, 13 Jan 2009 03:02:44 UT

When I turn 18 I wanna move in with someone
I hate staying here in MA, United States
I used to say I wanted to move to California
maybe I will still think on that dissension!!
does anyone maybe live somewhere that there wouldn't be
tornado's or earthquakes
I am not 2 sure about California anyway
help
because seriously I hate being here alot
the house is old and I don't wanna end up paying rent to my parents
I need to live out on my own or at least live in someone's apartment
I only have 2 more years to go so please if your interested let me know
we need to meet first (:

I just keep hearing people that are friends
and who want to move in together as friends
but yeah wanna be a roommate?

Hi :D

AstridMalia — Sat, 25 Oct 2008 20:37:25 UT

If anybody got a Myspace, Vampirefreaks or a bebo profile
then send it to me I will add you
then we can start chatting more because I really don't bother with this
I should but sometimes school gets in my way
and yet I have alot of other stuff to do on week days
so we can just chat on Myspace, Vampirefreaks or Bebo either one
but yeah you guys can talk to me on here but it will take me awhile to respond back to you all
because I have homework to do on the week days but yeah it would have to be on weekends
but when we start having Vacations then I will respond back to your messages or comments
so that's all I wanted to say
but right now I am bringing up my grades and yes I am a Sophomore right now
and I am 15 even know half of you guys already know that
but just to refresh your memory I wanted to get that out of me XD
so yeah if you already know me then here add me to Myspace, Vampirefreaks and Bebo

Links:
My Myspace (I never go on that much)
My Vampirefreaks
My Bebo
My Stickam
My Twitter
My Gaiaonline